I’m Trying

By Retep

On Self Over Status

Released on May 23, 2017

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Verse1

Change is the one thing that will never change

Couple looks in the mirror never knew it ever came

Ive been ok it went away coming back within a maze

Next thing I know im running late into a different day

People look amazed I look afraid of what I say

Im snapping when I hear my name

Acting when a Que is made

Laughing cuz its all sherades

All the egg is on your face

Packaging whats on my plate

Never fake so ask myself a q and a

Hook

Im trying to be (To be)

The best pete I can be (Can be)

But everything falls back on me

Im trying im trying

Verse 2

I see my flaws these people see my face

I wear a mask then people play there game

They do it for the sport even belicheck would have them stay

They sit for the anthem and have a jersey to grace there name

They chasing the reins complacent to pain a willing slave to the trade

But quick to start placing the blame from the statements they made

Im erasing there stage to start embracing my change from basement to fame

Till a tombstone starts encasing my bane

Sometimes I stay awake on a dark knight

With writers block in a bar fight

So much every line I write looks two faced in the starlight

Not to mention when I turn the tide theres a solar eclipse

And if a fan starts the wave its a tsunami orbiting this

Because people are always around but never know

Rumors swirl never listen up just let em go

Mind your business but please have your interest show

I wanna feel something doing something ive never done before

I wish I could start over with a few people

No regrets but standing up to the mistakes that will unseat you

My past darker than my current journey

Thats why I when I say I see the light it still disturbs me

Ironically blinded by the darkness thats why I show it mercy

Light and dark versing for the blindside to secure me

The loser sends condolences for the other one trying to turn me

If you try to hurt me im certain it won't concern me

Verse 3

Pressure builds and i dont know how to handle it

So I dismantle the manuscript and re write it as john wick

Fighting these demons violence is constant

Its part of my content the drama that I live

Is what I give cuz not cursing is my gift

People tell me to change think it would better me

I tell them to stop looking for a better me

The better you is your enemy

If you slip into my melodies

You would see the better me is my energy

Im inspired off my own potential

You can be where im at if your inner fight lets you

Never throw in your towel if it doesnt sweat you

Im a apollo mission to my creed nothing can protect you

If you keep going who knows I might let loose

Promote you to challenger to be the bearer of bad news

Open mind closed mouth tongue in cheek is a taboo

Im ai to your practice warewolf to a half moon

Some people want to join me but im doing my thing

I appreciate support but im choosing my gang

I see these other rappers no doubt im a fan

My taste in music dont support who I am

You do what you get in return I do what I can

Im cooking a lightning strike they a flash in the pan

I swear im not hating I just wanna make it pro

But what they be doing now is what I was doing 5 years ago