I need the answer to all of the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
Every single day I’m falling down to bits
I’m counting down the days you here me say the words
I quit
There’s things in life that I’ve regretted everyday
Just sitting here remembering the times
When I used to go out and play
They’re calling
Calling me out everyday
My demons are calling
Asking me to go out and betray
They can hear me
Screaming and Laughing at my pain
Waiting for me to finally hit the deck Waiting for me to go Insane
I’m Feeling
Feeling like the devils taking over me
Can’t get rid of this depression and all of this anxiety
I’m Feeling
Feeling like I’m struggling everyday
Hoping one day I’ll find happiness
And get rid of this loneliness
Hoping one day
I’ll finally find the light
I’m out here starting to overthink
Starting to think about another drink
Feeling like a robot
Feeling like my heads about to split
Just wanna finally get rid of this pain
I need the answer to all of the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
Now listen
This is a battle
A battle Im gonna face
A battle that’s going to stay for the rest of my life
My life is a disgrace
A battle
That started the year off in a dark place
2019 was my year
Ended up that I couldn’t look at my face
Emotional, emotional from fear
I Stopped Praying, Stopped praying to god
All I wanted was to go away and disappear
Telling myself that god wouldn’t be able to look me
About to go outside and create the new purge, Create my new destiny
I was starting to think that nobody could help me
I was starting to think nobody can fix it not even the church
Maybe it’s time I go back and listen to NF The search
I feel like it’s time that I finally go away
It’s time for me to make a change
Time to let me go and let me rot away and decay
These days I just don’t feel like anything at all
I just feel so empty and shame
Pressing these wrong emotions
Wondering would anyone forget me
Feeling like everyone’s against me
Feeling all this pain
Oh help me
I need an answer to all of the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
You don’t understand
You don’t understand what it's like
You don't understand why I can't sleep through the night
Its starting to consume me
Its making me start to see things through the night
Hoping one day I’ll see the happiness and
Then maybe the light
Tell me why
Why do I deserve this
I’ve given everything my all
I’ve been up and down multiple times off the floor
Maybe it’s time I end it and finally jump off this wall
Maybe it will make me stop crying anymore
Just wanna finally get rid of all this pain
I need an answer to all of the pain
This is my life
It’s a shame
Waiting before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again
Please just help me
Help me see the light
I’m struggling everyday
Please god help me now
What you gonna do when I hit off that bounce floor
Please just help me
Feel this pain no more
I need an answer to all of the pain
Before all the shame comes back again
Meeting my maker waiting in vain
Before all the pain comes back again