Scrolling through the memories

I hate the feelings

I get when I look back

In regret

How much things have changed

It's ridiculous but I didn't even realise

Listening to all those wise words

From all the people I idolise

Sometimes hurt turns into anger

All them good memories

Blurred by the bad ones

Remembering how much of a cunt

I really was

That's what hurts the most

Come so far but yet so close

You did the right thing I can't deny it

And I know you meant no harm by it

It's just never been the same since

All them people I tried to convince

I'm fine really I am

Never really admitted to myself I wasn't

And that's what kills you inside

The way it ended was painful

And I guess I was to blame

For it being way too shameful

Let myself down and all the people surrounding me

My good intentions were forever

Being let down by bad execution

We walked along the same path

Together yesterday

But today I stand alone

Stuck in this never ending evil cyclone

Without having a reason

To pick up my phone

Crowded streets and empty faces

Looking through the same old places

Of you and us there are no traces

Where did it all go wrong

We used to laugh about the future

Lived the nights without a care

Always together we had a deal

And it was just too fair

That city job took you away

Never saw you night or day

You never seem to want to stay

What more can I say to you

There's nothing we could say or do

Like I said, it ain't been the same

Since the day it was through

I wandered around this dirty town

Of grey and rotting streets

Couldn't find any peace of mind

I'm just so broke and I don't know why

Trying to make sense out of it all

Every time I get up back I fall

Put my life on the line

Just for you to shine

Be positive just gonna carry on

Even though I'm just on a

Never ending impossible mission

Blinded by a stupid decision

How would you feel

If you knew whatever you tried

Whatever you did was never good enough

Yeah let's face it I'm just so useless

Constantly reminded everyday

The struggle of the entire journey

Now your really taking the piss

With your morherfucking attorney

Excuse the explicits

But it just had to be said and done

Your partner in crime

Your assistant

We used to laugh about the future

Lived the nights without a care

Always together we had a deal

And it was just too fair

That city job took you away

Never saw you night or day

You never seem to want to stay

What more can I say to you

There's nothing we could say or do

Like I said, it ain't been the same

Since the day it was through

I know it's not your fault

But now it's hard for me to fall

Scared of the consequence

But then again fuck it or I'll regret it

Wait that sounded arrogant

Another one of my useless misfits

Pretty extreme crimes to commit

I must admit

It seems to perfect

On the other hand

I'm jumping to conclusions

Just to add to the whole confusion

The mixed messages

Gotta weigh up the advantages

From the disadvantages

Socially selective to avoid conflict

Yet again so dangerous

Cos it could always end in constrict

Learnt from that

Just by looking back

Just from looking back

That's what hurts the most

Come so far but yet so close

You did the right thing I can't deny it

And I know you meant no harm by it

It's just never been the same since

All them people I tried to convince

I'm fine really I am

Never really admitted to myself I wasn't

And that's what kills you inside