[Intro]
Ay, ay, ay, now (Still I keep hiding from the)
Ay, ay, I'm (Hiding from the)
Uh, uh, yeah
[Verse 1]
14 when I learned to smoke, Black & Mild stuffed in my coat
19 when my conscious broke, took me half a decade just to learn to cope
Chase fulfillment of my soul, current moment I am broke
Tryna see how far these legs are movin', action, go
But I see the big arenas, manifest the words I spoke
Never switch up on my faith, layin' stood up on the road
Feel like I am fallin' close, I just wouldn't call it close
Fam was all opposed, now they see the vision in me
Take care bidness, that way one day I am livin' simply
Out in Scotland herdin' sheep, hillside with my lovely queen
Talk about this rap a lot but she know how I love to dream
(Love to dream) Still I'm hidin' (Uhh, uh uh)
[Chorus]
(What I do?) Ran up north, than I ran south
(I was runnin' from my) Olympic dream didn't pan out (Didn't pan)
Homie left, it ain't right how it panned out
Had to heal my inner child just to bring the inner, uh (The inner)
Man out, I'm the man now (Man out, man now)
Gotta man up, can't stand down (Man up, stand down)
Heal my inner child (Uh, uh, heal my, heal my)
[Verse 2]
Forever searching for a sense of peace of my accomplishments
Never have been satisfied with myself without compliments
Driven by my ego and my pride, that pit is bottomless
Always chasing something great, I can't relax in confidence
That I'll make it if I don't kill myself for this shit (Kill myself for this shit)
Kill my ego, kill my health for this shit (Kill my health for this shit)
I need help, I am sick like (Need help, I am sick)
Fuck yo wealth, I am rich, but still I keep hidin' from the (Uh, uh uh)
[Chorus]
Ran up north, than I ran south (Then I ran south)
(I was runnin' from my) Olympic dream didn't pan out (Didn't ever pan out)
(Pan out) Homie left, it ain't right how it panned out
Had to heal my inner child just to bring to inner, uh (Inner)
Man out, I'm the man now (Man out, man now)
Gotta man up, can't stand down (Man up, stand down)
Had to (Had to heal my)
Heal my inner child (Uh, uh, heal my, heal my)
[Verse 2]
(Just to bring my inner) Demons to the surface ([?] up in my closet)
Chasin' dreams got to a point like, is it even for a purpose?
I've been evenly dispersing feelings that are just deepening the burden
That I feel about myself when I am tweakin' and I'm turnin'
On my pillowcase, missed the days sleepin' was a certain
Now I manifest with music, and the deeper that I'm goin'
The more that I get sad just to deepen my emotions
I am cryin' to my songs, am I just reapin' what I'm sowing?
I get lost in the acid trip for like five years
And my mind been gone, but I'm still right here
I done killed my ego and lost all my peers
But I'm... still not happy right here
Why I'm lost in the way that I feel 'bout myself
But the way that I'm feelin' ain't for real by myself?
(It's not about me, it's not about me)
These thoughts that I'm thinkin', they ain't good for my health
Why I'm lost in the way that I feel 'bout myself
When I know that these thoughts ain't for real by myself?
(They're not about me, they're not about me)
No, it's not the truth now that I'm healin' myself
Like, I just hit a smile, dap you up, say "It's been a while"
Smoke a Black & Mild, reminisce, yeah it's been a while
Since I had to split, dip, leaving you in the past
Easy to forget, apologies to my inner child
[Chorus]
(What I do?) Ran up north, than I ran south
(I was runnin' from my) Olympic dream didn't pan out (Didn't pan)
Homie left, it ain't right how it panned out
Had to heal my inner child just to bring the inner, uh (The inner)
Man out, I'm the man now (Man out, man now)
Gotta man up, can't stand down (Man up, stand down)
Heal my inner child (Uh, uh, heal my, heal my)
Just to bring the inner (man out)