Walking through hell

By Red Tears

On Death Of Roses

Released on January 7, 2021

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Chorus:

It's like I'm stuck in a bad dream, I'm walking through hell

There's no way you can save me, I'm locked in my cell

Why can't I heal? It's like the time froze

And I don't know what's real

Stop trying, I've always been closed

I know you won't miss me

You won't cry, even if you lose me

I see myself how you saw me - not enough

I can't act like I don't care, I can't act like I'm tough

Kill me, numb the pain

Don't need a reason, just need someone to explain

Why no one understands my pain

Verse 1:

I've been stuck in my head, talking to myself

Thinking "what's my worth?"

Said it many times, I wanna diе, dig me in the dirt

Can't find the truth in liеs that you serve

Don't you dare cry when I'm gone since you never cared about me

Questioning everyday if anyone ever loved me

I'm tired of that bullshit, it's getting really ugly

I love you so much, why don't you love me back?

Blaming me for shit I didn't do, that's a fact

I like how you be telling everyone you cared about me

When you don't give no fucks about me

Why can't they see what I see?

Chorus:

It's like I'm stuck in a bad dream, I'm walking through hell

There's no way you can save me, I'm locked in my cell

Why can't I heal? It's like the time froze

And I don't know what's real

Stop trying, I've always been closed

I know you won't miss me

You won't cry, even if you lose me

I see myself how you saw me - not enough

I can't act like I don't care, I can't act like I'm tough

Kill me, numb the pain

Don't need a reason just need someone to explain

Why no one understands my pain

Verse 2:

It only takes a fake smile to fool someone, I'm fine

Don't know if you noticed but every night I'm cryin

I know I was so dumb, don't remind me

But fuck you bitch and fuck all your lying

It is what it is, but it won't ever end

Don't come up to me and hug me, I'm not your friend

Protecting myself from you, from getting hurt

Always thinking I can die and go with her

I don't talk to anyone, no, I'm not looking for attention

Don't know why you saying, saying things I didn't mention

Making lies just to cause some damn tension

Telling you how I feel and I hope you really get it

Bridge:

I miss the old me

Tryna find myself, where the fuck I go?

How'd I get into all this bullshit?

Why is it so slow?

I can't keep fighting for this, for something I can't have

And I don't know why but I tone on the bad

Chorus:

It's like I'm stuck in a bad dream

I'm walking through hell

There's no way you can save me

I'm locked in my cell

Why can't I heal? It's like the time froze

And I don't know what's real

Stop trying, I've always been closed

I know you won't miss me

You won't cry, even if you lose me

I see myself how you saw me, not enough

I can't act like I don't care, I can't act like I'm tough

Kill me, numb the pain

Don't need a reason, just need someone to explain

Why no one understands my pain

Outro:

I'm trapped in a room with no way out

There's air but im not breathing

Suffocating, bleeding out

Tears keep coming, can't stop 'em

I will give up soon