Another night where I stay up to type questions into Google

Too embarrassed to admit to people in my life

That I still swipe pictures on her Instagram

I wish that I could find an answer

I'm going backwards

Another night where I stay up to fight the loneliness I'm feeling

I wish I didn't have deal with inconsistencies inside of me

So I searched through some articles

But I did not come close to an answer

I'm going backwards

This isn't linear

(I'm going backwards)

Am I inferior...

(...To the path that moves me past her?)

This isn't linear

(I'm going backwards)

Am I inferior...

(...To the path that moves me past her?)

I wish that I could find an answer