Eternity - Intellectual

Ah, shit

The fuck has been going on with me?

What am I? Who am I?

Shit, man

My head’s been feelin’ foggy

Sometimes my voice cracks through the walls of facade

Thinkin’ what could really work, is the world really mine?

Do I really outshine? Do I really decide?

Is the people really ‘round me are the ones gonna ride?

This is deeper than the music that my pen likes to write

These are feelings I forget, but then dwell overnight

I don’t mean to excite, just tellin’ you what it’s like

To be afraid in a maze of emotions I fight

Would it ever be wrong if I wanted to die?

Is suicide the true definition of paradise?

I never spoke about a thing until I felt it was right

I don’t need to explain, just hope you feel what I write

Deep down, all I ever wanted was to unite

And uplift the ones that never ever believed I was right

To anything in the world, so I flew like a kite

Began to chant, this is how it must feel to be alive

Fought my rainy days ‘til I saw a sunshine

Fuck a chorus, my sources enlight another bind

Two sides trippin’, open the third eye

Unlocked the doors, I couldn’t help but try

Wonderin’ if I could ever ever glorify

Erase the past, it’s been so long since I cried

Shut off the lights, and begin to revise

Money in the air maybe that’s the reason why

I put my all in this shit, when I wanted to quit

Told myself like five times I ain’t gonna be shit

Fuck around life’s a trip, took a toll down the road

For a bus to just hit, become another lost soul

Or fill my lungs with the drugs that the demons control

Drink my heart away, get so numb, stuck like a stone

That erupt, got corrupt, fuck it up, keep it a buck

I felt stuck, knock right down, but I’m always right back up

Show some love, infatuate the lines

That was once above, but then deep in my spine

Carry out the wants, to go for what was mine

It’s a shame how people use me all the time

But I pushed and shoved, and start to sting like a bee

Fell in love what was what, and what was really the

Other side of the mirror parallel to the screen

Show the world is mine, and mine for eternity

Eternity, eternity

Fuck, man

Is this really me?

Is this really the path I choose?

Fuck, man

I don’t know

I just don’t fuckin’ know