Sidelines - Intellectual

{Verse 1]

I’m standing on the edge of all the battles that I can’t win

It’s like the wreckage of a life I lead in transit

Has got its hand around me like if I don’t end this it’s gonna follow me forever

It’s gonna follow me forever

I’m not sick

But I been coughing up a lung and getting nervous

That every person that I love just don’t deserve this

I’m permanently fucked without a purpose

I’ll get my shit together

[Chorus]

I’ve been shouting at stoplights and cursing thе street signs

This used to be a place that I callеd home

Suddenly I’m just not right

It’s spinning in my mind

I see your name everywhere I go

So I’m harder on myself

How’d I end up here?

I’m on the other side of help

I’d rather disappear

I try to watch from the sidelines

It’s never the right time

I see your name everywhere I go

If I’m a target you’re the barrel

The pain is kinda sentimental

If I was feeling any better you wouldn’t follow me forever

I’m lying to my best friends

If I was something I’d be half dead

But I’m not that fucking clever

I’ll never get my shit together

I’ve been shouting at stoplights and cursing the street signs

This used to be a place that I called home

Suddenly I’m just not right

It’s spinning in my mind

I see your name everywhere I go

So I’m harder on myself

How’d I end up here?

I’m on the other side of help

I’d rather disappear

I try to watch from the sidelines

It’s never the right time

I see your name everywhere I go