[Intro]

Yo

Yo, yo, yo

Yo

Yo

Yo, yo, yo

[Verse 1]

Pull the sheets over my face (mic check, mic check, mic check)

Dig my fingers through my chest, rip the leaches of my case

Depleted time inside this smile, lost reason to escape

Easy speaking doesn't help no more

Been leaking, now I'm drained

This unyielding strain has since cured me of my sanity

Flashing thoughts of death, to bridge life's curious disparity

Woeful

Look at me, less than half of me hopeful

Instrumental in my decline and I havеn't been vocal

I'll crack a joke and laugh looking happy and mogul

To bypassers snooping

No disrespеct but you don't have solutions

Or a clue, but what I have been through

All I ask for is a little space

And please spare me your massive hubris

Look I'm not saying what I'm going through is that unusual

Or some tragic deuces

Broken, see, you barely have the looseness of my points of reference

And my poison preference

Kill the hopes of merriment then I destroy the evidence

Mad elusive anyway

Still look backwards, heavy weight

Halving it every half hour

Anti-depressants each day

Therapy have paused temporarily, I'm taking a break

Before I break in my wake

Rarely, barely okay

I ain't slept in my own bed or home in months

Only habits I've retained is self-loathing and smoking blunts

Moved across the ocean for better access to loaded guns

And now I'm here, shooting what's meant for my skull into the air

[Bridge]

I'm not sure of where I'm supposed to go

Yelling: "Shut up boy, I'm supposed to go"

Not sure I love myself at all

When I'm not standing close to you

[Verse 2]

Double entendre, who gives a fuck?

It's still the mantra

Not interested these days, I'm breaking contracts

Being honest, it's been seven years, been unpromised

And as it falls apart before my eyes I'm looking onwards going: "Who am I?"

No seriously, who am I?

Not you and I

Not these thoughts of suicide, nah

Beyond that is there something still left fighting for?

So I want that

Can I become that?

The beat goes on

And your boy's just smoking

Loitering my pearly gates that won't ever open

Saving phone numbers I ain't ever gon' call

If I were to disappear, I wonder when they would notice

Yo, I have lost the love, I have lost some people

Watching bridges burn, watching my net-worth increase though

Health decays each day

Each morning symptom casino

Cost to find myself even at the cost of ego

When you've nothing left to lose you lose sense of danger

Life's fucked me, it's time that I redress the favor

Or maybe, stack it and learn to nurture myself

Or does that somehow go against my nature?

What can these hands grab and these teeth do?

How far can these feet move?

Just how many choices can I reset through?

To convince myself I can ever be less you

That I'm nothing to sneeze at when I've needed proof

But you uptight, someone please help me shake loose

[Outro]

There's no controlled chaos