[Verse]

This the only therapy I've really got the time for

Designing these rhymes, as i write in a psych ward

Sick of fucking skitzin out, Valium won't sit me down

Sick of feeling guilty, never ever meant to put you down

It wasn't me you see my personality is splitting up

Baby I'm not crazy I'm ashamed of all the shit I've done

And I ain't given up on life, watch me scribble up a rhyme

I try and fight it but I hide it all inside

See whats happened in my mind I'm in rehab cause of ice

And I'm feeling like I'm dreaming i don't need another high

Today I seen my mother cry I don't need another lie

My brother come to visit couldn't look him in the fuckin eyes

I had to struggle by I suffered from these nightmares

I never told you anything I'm knowing that you guys care

Sarah standing there and I'm happy that she never left

She knows I got potential but she's seeing that I'm just a mess

What a wreck? I need to get it off my chest

Took a pack of Panadeine four, lucky that I cheated death

Wish that I could take it back, all that fucking crazy crap

Wish I never carried on, what I'm gonna say to dad?

All I'd have to do is sit him down and he would start to listen

But I'm scared to tell him 'cause he's got a heart condition

This is far from whinging, right now, I'm locked up

In a mental home, and they feeding me a lot of drugs

And this is hard to admit cause I'm faster

But my target is to be a better man no more startin' shit

No more sparkin' spliffs, no more fucking harder shit

No more being violent over comments like my father did

The violent episodes I'm having man I'm not that guy

Scott, Sarah, Troy, Dad, Mum, I apologise

And that is not a lie, never did I compromise

Dad I see the mirror and its telling me I got your eyes

I really wanna try, didn't really wanna die

Didn't wanna end it all, but the thought it crossed my mind

Safer if I'm locked inside, don't throw away the key

Give me a couple months and try it just to wait and see

Don't need to prove myself, Ratesy never lost a fight

How would you feel if I woke up and I lost my life

Hate it how I feel inside, hate it how I'm really nice

Hate it how I turned into this person that can deal with life

Hate it how I dreamed about the shit that happened years ago

Hate it how your scared to talk to me, you shouldn't fear me, no

I know I carry on a lot, smashing walls and them I drop

Another pill I'm gonna pop, when's this ever gonna stop?

Brother, can you help me out? Never have you let me down

Never have you turned your back, appreciate it, let it out

This fucking gimmick has me spinning, tripping out

All these meds I've gotta take I really wanna spit 'em out

Sarah yeah, I love you girl, doing it for mum as well

All the drugs I've taken to escape it gonna fuck my health

Not with me with drugs it isn't helping man I need to talk

I see the blood I hear the screams its dreaming but I see it all

I wanna change my life I'm dangerous and crazy inside

Lately I hate it, contemplating should I take my life

People have it worse than me, I know it but it hurts to see

Me turn into this person thats so hurtful when i wake from dreams

I wake up in a cold sweat, Sarahs there to hold my hand

Told her things i didn't mean its tearing out my whole chest

I'm kinda scared cause your telling me I'm fucked up

Its fucking bullshit meet my family its just us

My dads sick its stressing me

These dreams get the best of me

They give me down and in an hour get my therapy

What to tell my fans would they ever understand

That I'm doing this and hiding out to be a better man

Did they ever really care, yeah, I've got my family there

And I'm lucky that I'm knowing that they'll be here till the end

I need to seek and find, just a little peace of mind

You need to fill your fucking puzzle

Motherfucker, have a piece of mine

Say that I'm intimidating, charge me with intimidation

Drop the charges, motherfuckers getting help and sick of waiting

I wrote this track to speak my mind so say I'm not real

Place the blame on drug abuse and say its cause I pop pills

Say that I am faking it, you put up with these hot chills

Once you've gone and done that you tell me how you gonna feel

Another dream tonight, speak to demons

I need to find a happy medium and yeah, I need to cry

I admit that I'm sitting here dripping tears

As I disappear another pipe to stay crystal clear

After this I can certainly say that I am tough

If your thinking otherwise you can go and get fucked!