*cough*

It's quite emotional...

Yup

But it is what it is ya know...

[bridge]

Yo, uh...

Christmas is coming, It doesn’t feel like Christmas is coming

I’m quite the pessimist this time of the year

I hope I find a place to shed my tears, ya...

Christmas is coming, why it never feel like Christmas is coming?

[verse 1: Ramaj Eroc]

*smacks lips*

It's probably because my family fucked up

Or probably cause my money ain’t in lumps sums

I don’t buy presents until after the holidays

When the buy one get two half off signs wave

And I still may not make a purchase

Now my fuckin’ insecurities got feeling so worthless

How I feel about religion got my prayers feeling so churchless

If my soul ain’t for sale then what is my sole purpose

Rollin’ down la brea on the 212

I heard my worst enemy wished I do well

I heard a close friend of me ain’t too fond of me

I got word that this tinder match wanna follow me

She wanna link up tonight

And I rather spend time with her than with folks I’ve known my whole life like...

[bridge 2]

Christmas ain't coming, I'm acting like Christmas ain't coming

There’s no bonds, just blood relationships

I really hate this shit

But Christmas is coming, I want it to feel like Christmas is coming

Let me be vulnerable & face my fears

Don’t wanna hide my face when I shed tears, baby

[hook: Samantha Leah]

I'm extra cold this year

(I know that I'm sad this time of year

(so cold, so cold)

I wanna face my fears

(always)

And it's always the same, always the same, always the same

[verse 2: Ramaj Eroc]

So what do you believe?

Give the kids what they want? or get what you need?

But whats more painful to see?

No food in the fridge or no presents under tree?

The youth watching so there’s accidental lessons we may teach

The past got you in the box, feel like the present not for me

My shelter not a home, & I been stressin’ out for weeks

A long hug may just make me feel complete

I apologize if my emotions getting the best of me

I been letting all my dirty laundry mess with me

And the only way to get better, is to address it when it’s fresh & in the name of love i pray you take these steps with me

There’s this underlining pressure to be great

But when there’s so many distractions & it’s hard to concentrate

Sometimes you get so caught in all the regret & shame

Which is why every 365 I feel the same...

[hook: Samantha Leah]

I'm extra cold this year

(I just wanna feel, I just wanna feel like...)

I wanna face my fears

And it's always the same, always the same, always the same