Stuck pondering a worthless life

Staring at mirrors trying to recognize

But the thought slips deeper in my mind until

I am nothing but a past memory

Who I once knew, who I was

Is now gone to time

And all that remains is a worthless shell

Who wastes away with no courage to end it

If I had time to think clearly about it

I would've been gone already

I try to let you know but I can’t use my words anymore

I have no options left, I'm powerless

Its been like this for as long as I can remember

And still I think about what went wrong

And how it was my fault

I have been conditioned this way

I can never be normal

When life shows itself I hide because

This is all I know

And one day I know my words will be true

And I will leave you just as I came, unwanted