[Verse]

The night had just begun

I’m with the the boys we’re drinking having fun

Was out the house and had no where to run

And school just wasn’t as important as it used to be usually I’m consumed with my duties but speaking truthfully

Things have been rearranging my thought

Went to school with a dub in my pocket slipped and was caught

Got suspended for a minute

Now I’m timid distraught

Had some trouble with my family and what I was taught

But anyways we crackin' jokes and making conversation

Ask my friend bout his shoulder as an observation

I could see that he was in pain

Fresh out of surgery

Had to retain his strength but later occurred to me

He was on something greater than weed and liquor

Said the doctor gave him Oxycontin it would heal him quicker

Asked if we all wanted to try

Said I guess because the stress had taken over and the way I’m feeling sober is I wanted to die

So I threw one back

Let it resonate

Floating feather in my bed and I’m the only one at heavens gate

Feel in touch with myself

I could do this time to time and it won’t damage my health

But the rest of my boys were feeling nauseous

Acting cautious stomach deep with regret

Said they’d never touch that shit again and wish they’d forget

Now it’s posing a threat

Should I listen when they speak or am I missing what I seek I’ve never felt better yet

I told my boy that he should let me cop a couple more

Store em in the top drawer ask me what I want 'em for

Said I wanna sell 'em nothing other than money

But he noticed that my attitude funny

Lacking gratitude I threw em in my bag and then left

Boys are looking like my actions were as tragic theft

Shit I snorted every fuckin' pill

Feeling magic but I start to feel a habit As I ache for the thrill

Time is standing still

Everybody is noticing my behavior

And focusing on the notion I’m hopeless and need a savior

And asking me what the fuck I’m taking

Where the hell is the money I’m supposed to be making

Always telling lies

Hope they never catch me or it’s demise

Stealing all supplies that arise never compromise

All I wanna do is lay in the bed for the day

Fill my head with the powerful powder til I decay

But the homies try to bring me to around

Yet It’s hard to pick myself off the ground

Barely present while I’m stressed to surround

I remember chilled at my homies place

And he could read the drug addiction right across my lonely face

So I got pissed off and went to take a leak

Was afraid of every body and I didn’t wanna speak

Man I raided every cabinet in that room

Was so unsuccessful that I started planning out my doom

Felt like laying in the tomb

I don’t got no money

But I had to get high

So I walked along the street until the car passed by

And he said he had some dope and it was cheaper pills

Spent the last of all my money as I ran for the hills

Started smoking it at first

But in time my stomach emptied and the habit getting worst

Wasn’t smart enough to grab it so I had to quench the thirst

Acting passive as an addict turned my back as I rehearsed

Heard that shooting up was a whole experience I should try

While my eyes looking delirious floating up to sky

If I die

Man it wouldn’t make a difference

Can’t begin to comprehend the way I’m feeling in this instance

Started shooting up to start off the day

Life is hard and half my heart went away

Every sky often livid and grey

Haven’t seen my friends

Hiding from them all

Tried to quit but quickly slipped into the struggle of withdrawal

Man it only took a couple hours

Til i used and then it felt like I had super powers

Next day my boy came by

Told me I should jump in the whip

Talking quiet cause I’m so afraid to slip

See the destination

Saw a couple cars

Moved with a hesitation

Needed heroin to drown me in imagination

Walked in an intervention I was heated

Tried to turned around got slammed and then it hit me I’m defeated

Fuck I’ll listen what the hell am i here

Kept dispelling my addiction while the voices tried to speak in my ear

All I felt was fear

I needed drugs

Walked right out that fucking room and left my family with mugs

Hit my dealer said I needed a bag

Maybe more than I usually do because I feel like life is a drag

Locked my door as I sat on the floor opened the bag and I swore that this was the most dope I think I’ve ever had

Damn I took it all one shot

Started bleeding as I sat and watched my blood clot

Fell asleep quick

Shit I never woke

Something wrong I feel I blew it shit I should’ve spoke

Feel a warmness in my heart

Til I realized that it’s death and then my life was torn apart

I’m not waken up

I don’t think I will

But if god can help then please help cause I think that my heart went still