Did you know that I got to fight fam
Every night just to keep this dream alive?
Bombay brown boy trapped inside the body of a white
Looking for faith, no believer in sight
Peer pressure stunted my growth and my height
Fist and a cupboard got in a fight
Left-brain, Hook-right
Mom I know you want a CEO, should have thought about that before you bought a whole CD row
You don't know so I don't blame you. (Don't blame you)
And dad I know you think that I'm childish bro you can't see me grow but I can't just feign you
We can't be the same dude
You don't know so I don't blame you
And I know all my friends think that I'm gonna fail
Hit the hammer to the nail
Blinded by my thoughts should I send you Braille-mail ?
You can send me hate mail
But I'ma keep fighting till my chest turns red, face turns pale
Everybody got a story this is my only tale
Everybody got a story this is my holy grail (My holy grail)
System always hated me and I hated society
I hated sobriety, I hated propriety
You can't even try to see the demons inside of me
Ironic how the people view my heavy words lightly
Ma and Pa I'm sorry
Shit is not a hobby
Damned if I work in an office or a lobby
Grammy, Billboard nominee
Old Love lives like a zombie
Only felt lust when she saw me
Dumped the devil in my life
Fight the devil in my mind
Then I pray to a God (Oh God) that I can't even find
Dream and logic, I finally picked a side
Thinking lately may not work out
But you know I tried
Turning 18 he might lend me the Merc now
But I'm not a spoilt child
So I try and I stick to the Hyundai
Grew wise like a Banzai
Call it love? (Bitch) I call it a Ponzi
You didn't know? Time to get your mind right
Screw turning the blind eye
Deep down I'm kind of a kind guy
Got stepped over in hindsight
So I kill the kind guy
Drink up cyanide
Chug infinite
Feelings on a page you can see it when I hand write
Addicted to the rage and the darkness running from the lime light
At Least until the times right
Spark this fire in my eye flame in my heart grades fell apart
Fake another sigh
Fake over confidence every single time I'm shy
I never read lines you wonder, "Why man?"
I prefer to write them
Demons, hide them
Drugs, don't try them
Always stay clean not messy we don't want another
Winehouse, Cobain, Prince, Hendrix, Joplin, Presley
God blessed me, money, family, happy granny
Took her back
Second grand to heart attack
Called God twice, didn't text me back
Heart just cracked
Matter fact
Faith has lacked
Since that day my faith has lacked (x2)
Grown up now I'm a shark in a lake, always ponder
Life's give and take move onward
Do what you wanna do
Be what you wanna be
1 big journey
C'est la vie