Dead Inside

By R3DD L

On Break The World

Released on June 16, 2021

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[Verse 1]

There’re so many broken individuals today

They shut everybody out because, because they’re so afraid

They don’t know who they can turn to ‘cause, they don’t know who to trust

But let me tell you something, don’t be ever giving up

I know what it’s like, constantly feeling alone

Trapped inside your own mind, don’t know where you can go

Don’t ever really want to go outside and show your face

And the smile that you’re showing everybody’s fake

I don’t want to keep feeling like I no longer belong

I want to feel like I matter, I want to make sure I’m strong

Don’t want live my life thinking that what I’m doing is wrong

Making music for the people who feel more than withdrawn

I know the way we’re all thinking when we resort to the drink

How much does shit even matter? We really don’t want to think

That’s the last thing on our minds when we feel dead inside

We want to go to sleep, never wake up, just say goodbye


[Chorus]

No longer thinking straight

I’m filled with pain and rage

I’m just so dead inside

Swear that I ain’t feeling great

No longer thinking straight

I’m filled with pain and rage

I’m just so dead inside

Swear that I ain’t feeling great


[Verse 2]

I felt alone for a long time and told people “I’m fine”

Pay people no mind if they think that I’m lying

Ain’t commit no crime, ask myself why I

Choose to ignore the help and do shit alone, why?

I’m independent, I don’t need nobody’s help

That’s what I tell myself, I fucking hate myself

I’m constantly pushing people away

It’s like I’m honestly looking for things to hate

It’s like a coping mechanism, when I’m blowing shit up

I fill people with pessimism and don’t give a fuck

When I destroy all of my friendships, I just don’t want to look

I don’t mean to be a bastard, I’m just down on my luck

Like all the time, I fucking hate my life

I ain’t giving up, I don’t feel alright

But I can’t tell anybody ‘cause, I don’t feel it’s right

Why do I feel like this, pretty much all of the time?


[Chorus]

No longer thinking straight

I’m filled with pain and rage

I’m just so dead inside

Swear that I ain’t feeling great

No longer thinking straight

I’m filled with pain and rage

I’m just so dead inside

Swear that I ain’t feeling great


[Verse 3]

I don’t want to feel like shit each and every other day

I just want to live my life in an ordinary way

I’m just fed up of feeling the way I do, today

Sick and tired of being sick and tired, how do I escape?

It’s impossible to get out of this mindset

Stuck inside of my head, kind of feel like I’m dead

I don’t want to die yet, saying no goodbye’s yet

Got a lot of time left, shit is like a mind test

Depression is a horrible disease

Every single day, it’s killing people off with ease

I see people crying and they’re begging for release

Then I look in the mirror and I see what they see

I see a man who is broken, and his face has no emotion

A lot of things unspoken and the life that he has chosen

Makes him feel like he is drowning in the ocean

He’s dead inside, everything is frozen


[Chorus]

No longer thinking straight

I’m filled with pain and rage

I’m just so dead inside

Swear that I ain’t feeling great

No longer thinking straight

I’m filled with pain and rage

I’m just so dead inside

Swear that I ain’t feeling great