Sometimes I miss who I was before I knew better

Sometimes I miss not knowin’ at all

I didn’t change for the fame

I changed so I wouldn’t fall

[Hook]

I survived it, but lost me in the process

Same hands, they just colder when they cross shit

Mama say I changed, I say I adapted

Name ring different when they say it in the traffic

I outlived the boy I was, that’s the cost then

I don’t feel the wins, I just log them

Still breathing, but I’m not who I started as

I survived it… but I lost me in the process

[Verse 1]

I remember nights I was prayin’ to escape

Now I move so quiet, I don’t even say grace

Same hunger, new habits, different taste

I don’t sleep the same, I just close my face

People say I’m distant, I just learned range

I don’t argue back, I just rearrange

Every loss turned me sharp, turned me strange

I don’t miss the pain, but I miss my name

I was loud when I needed help

Now I whisper when I’m doin’ well

Everybody want a piece of me that survived

Nobody cared for the one that fell

I don’t tell stories, I show results

I don’t chase closure, I just revolt

Heart went numb when the bills got paid

I don’t feel proud, I just feel adult

[Hook]

I survived it, but lost me in the process

Same hands, they just colder when they cross shit

Mama say I changed, I say I adapted

Name ring different when they say it in the traffic

I outlived the boy I was, that’s the cost then

I don’t feel the wins, I just log them

Still breathing, but I’m not who I started as

I survived it… but I lost me in the process

[Verse 2]

I don’t go back to them corners, they remember me

Every street got a version that buried me

I was broke with a heart full of enemies

Now I’m paid and I trust shit carefully

Old friends talk like they knew me

They knew the hunger, not what it do me

Pressure turn love into duty

I don’t feel fake, I feel newly

I made it out, but I carry the sound

Of nights where sirens would carry me down

I don’t explain when they question my crown

I know the weight, I been wearin’ it proud

I don’t celebrate much, I just nod

Every blessing come stitched with a scar

If I met my old self right now

He wouldn’t know who the fuck we are