[Chorus]
Melancholic, I’m too deep in my sorrow
I do it to myself but he’d make it harder
Sometimes I find it hard to breathe with my eyes closed
And lately I can’t even think, where’d my mind go?
I don’t know where it went
And I been the edge
So I’ma put up my defense
I been feeling so pent up
That I can’t even reflect
And I’ve kept up my head
So long I forgot the reason
It’s a reflex
[Verse 1]
And now I ain't got no friends
I ain't got shit to my name
Swear I’ll nevеr see the end
I swear that it’s all thе same
I wish that I could pretend
That I had fucking amnesia
Or could feel love again
In any part of my being
Backstabbed, and I still feel the edge
Back track, do it over again
I can’t get it out of my head
I can’t get it out of my head
Tear ducts all dried up and abused
I’m stuck, and there’s no cutting loose
No luck, swear to god there’s no use
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[Chorus]
Melancholic, I’m too deep in my sorrow
I do it to myself but she’d make it harder
Sometimes I find it hard to breathe with my eyes closed
And lately I can’t even think, where’d my mind go?
I don’t know where I went
And I been the edge
So I’ma put up my defense
I been feeling so pent up
That I can’t even reflect
And I’ve kept up my head
So long I forgot the reason
It’s a refle-
[Verse 2]
Knock me off my balance
Bitch, I have none
I can’t find my grounding
I can’t stand up
I’m so fucking calloused
I’m so damn numb
Don’t comment on that story, and don’t make that post
Don’t speak to anybody, they can’t ever know
My face ID can’t recognize me through the tears
And I hate what I see when I look in the mirror
So fucking naive
To think that you are unbreakable
Bitch, roll up your sleeve
Because your heart is too hatable
Been so fucking long
Forever feels like a while now
My face in a cloth
I desperately try to cry out
Wish I was anyone else
Anyone but myself
Wish I could just fucking leave
But I can’t ever get help
My wounds will never heal, each day I bleed out
And I can’t lift my arms, I’ll never reach out
[Outro]
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