Christopher died

It just hurts more as time goes by

Because our worsening society

Could sorely use his light

It makes as little sense as ever

That something just tore the tether

Just to task his gentle spirit with a

Drift into the night

The funny part of wishing

It was him, not me, that died

Is that seeing all that grief

Forced me to re-think suicide

And I'm still, I'm still

I am still "still alive"

And I miss you

And I've missed you

And you're never very far

Something made me think of you

As I stood watching cars

That were crawling along

On a foreign horizon

Too far away to be heard

In the air

I felt a peace that moved as slow as a glacier

I was a person apart from my life

I don't know why, but all I remember

Is wishing you'd had that

And starting to cry

And I'm still, I'm still

I am still still

I'll still, I'm still

I am still still

I am still, I am still

I am still "still alive"