[Verse 1]

The veins in my head poke out every direction

Poor execution, you all caused the infection

Digging into my brain so you can rest with the hurting

And even when I'm gone, keep holding onto your burdens

I’ve searched too long and come up empty handed

All you’ve become is a memory in the form of an apparition

I told you face first, it wasn’t my only decision

But you didn’t want to pursue with me cause you hated my religion

Living the dream in the city while I'm broken and damaged

You saw it as an opportunity to use me toward your advantage

Swallowing my bravery, leaving me breathlessly

Telling me when I find someone else, you’ll always be daddy

The darkness is inviting me, popping two packs of Xanax

You’re inviting me over to rape me so now you’re acting frantic

With one small click, I can choose who I pick

You just wanted me for sex? You had to be more slick

We met for the first time but you couldn't respect it

Expecting God to come and hand you over a blessing

To take the torn pieces of me with the reasons you’re breaking me

To succumb to the nature of the pain, you’re not in reality

One more cop on the scene, leave me dead like the rest

You wanna be in a relationship but leech off my stress

I left that night feeling worthless, love my life less

Go find someone else to love, cause it isn’t me

[Chorus]

You all wanna say sorry to me now

Where were you guys when I was down?

That’s the way the guilt rolls

Tears won’t stop streaming down

What kind of fake love have I found?

It’s the same abusive cycle around and round

[Verse 2]

The pressure in my chest is hurting my trust

In the circle of dust, happiness fades faster than rust

With the constant whispering inside of my ear

Nothing you could say could deaden my fears

The beats my heart make with the blood I drew

Isn’t for you to gain more sympathy with your Snapchat views

Can’t wake up and make up, it’s all just fake love

So how can you love me when you never even met me?

Your actions are your mental health purging

I don’t need to dwell in your stress, I don’t deserve this

I don’t need to wake up and cut myself in half

And gouge my eyes from the call you did before I left

Seeing the sight of your dick shoots pain in my back

Where are my Vicodin pills I had when my teeth got ripped out?

I was purging my demons while you keep dreaming

Guess it’s back to the drawing board of constantly blocking

You out of my life, you don’t live with the strife

You didn’t know how I felt when I had the grip on the knife

The sights you sent me are engraved in the cemetery of my mind

And after the things I said, you’re still blind to the fact I don’t want you

Every month you say you still love me

It’s been over a year, coming to take away my happy

I’m crying in the closet with the thought of your message

And remembering you using me as a fucking weapon

[Chorus]

You all wanna say sorry to me now

Where were you guys when I was down?

That’s the way the guilt rolls

Tears won’t stop streaming down

What kind of fake love have I found?

It’s the same abusive cycle around and round

[Chorus]

You all wanna say sorry to me now

Where were you guys when I was down?

That’s the way the guilt rolls

Tears won’t stop streaming down

What kind of fake love have I found?

It’s the same abusive cycle around and round