And when I said it's been hell

I don't think I could ever mean that

Maybe I did in foresight and couldn't see that

I am alive somewhat alright I haven't been bad

Since I first laid my eyes on you in class

And I offer you in return for a life of love

An offer I will be so torn if you give it up

I feel so crazy a little lately I know it's not lust

But what if we can put some time in maybe just doing us

And I'm not tryna sound selfish when I ask you this

I need you're lovin' need and a huggin' and a touch and kiss

I haven't felt this feeling in a long time

Now and then In my room I ask myself if she'll be mine

I'd all for her love even flatline

But that conflicts, why I exist in this timeline

Now I'm doing, saying things and with no remorse

The infrastructure of a ghost running 'round inside a corpse

I try to not objectify A woman, you've gotta understand I've seen it all

I've seen the rise, the time slow demise the thin lines thinning, and I've seen the fall

It takes a toll a man like me to pray to keep content

It takes a toll a man like me to see you and stay calm

I spew my heart my mind my body on a track or two I've the worth of inside your purse the cherry lip balm

I see your face I get so happy

I'm not even

In the studio trynna sound sappy

These are my internal thoughts

And likely my demise I've got to take a pause

Now I'll resume

You're out of love maybe

I'll presume

Unfortunate for me

It's these things my brain consumes

Now I'm here almost in the dark

I'm in my room where my life flipped upside down and out and screwing with a tune

Now I'm here might as well ask you a question

If I don't hit the pen, and live again will you invest then?

If I stop swearing on a star

And genuinely see

Will you get the picture of love, I'll help you get the scheme

Pieces of a puzzle carved of glass

And glued to foil poorly put together

Slowing and surely they're falling apart

Another beat inside the catalog

Of another man's life watching the movie closely as the story starts

I have to act again what I can do to show I'm worthy

You say one thing I'll quit it all cold turkey

The things we'll see through the days of our journey

But leaving me alone isn't quite the thing thats working