It’s not my native tongue to tell you I was wrong

But it’s a lesson I’m learning

To take back the absence, and jump at the one chance

To change what I’d done

And never feel that way again

There’s a cross that bears your name

And flowers at your grave

But I can’t help but wonder

If things had changed

Could I have been there for you

When you needed me to be brave?

Oh god, I wish I had been brave

Push it down with sedatives

And let the world fall away for a while

You’re not coming back, and I can’t handle that

I drink myself to a person that I don’t know

I can’t cope, but I swear I’m not losing hope

That one day, you’ll come back

And make the most of the time that I wish we still had

I can’t lay you to rest

I can’t lay you to rest

Push it down with sedatives

And let the world fall away for a while

Push it down with sedatives

And let the world fall away for a while

You’re not coming back, and I can’t handle that

I drink myself to a person that I don’t know

I can’t cope, but I swear I’m not losing hope

That one day, you’ll come back

And make the most of the time that I wish we still had