Afraid to be Lyrics:

Intro:

Yeah, Listen

Let me break this shit down for you

From one to twenty

Verse:

I was at the crib 

Chillin with a bottle

No like I was a baby just suckin on a nozel

Then I learned to crawl

Learnin how to Speak

Mamma sing me a lullaby so I sleep

At the age of three I remember sorta vidid images of the plane down to California

Startin elementary- people mentor me- and give me knowledge- but out of pocket

Daddys got it

Always got it

Turnin 5 at the time and attending kindergarten

Got a target

To makin progress

So I'm makin an effort to ace a drawin

Work is really borin and super early up in the morning

But I think I'm noticing a couple friends are forming

Playdates and an otterpop when it's really scorching now we're all joining in extracurricular sporting and I'm shaking kids hands after soccer tournaments

Askin bout my right one- I was born with it- mama always told me never never to call it deformity

(She you really shouldn't say that you're really special...)

This wasn't really phasin me early off in the races I was always at a parallel with these parallel faces- now because a conscious is stirring up in my matrix

Real world people racist see- and this is make believe- feel discrimination where there really ain't you see come to think of it I really was a slave to me- shaking anybodys hand was takin bravery

Uncomfortable like I'm ashamed to be

While I'm judging on my self I needed pain relief it never came to me and I was stained to see- that it was make believe- open the gate for me I'm so afraid to be

Still I keep rising like a bakery- age 14 seeking what is made of me age 15 think is when I made a beat

Stayed hooked till the top like drapery

More on that later

At the time the priority wasn't beat maker

Too concerned with transitioning to the ninth grade

New girls and old friends that might fade

Guess back in 8th grade we role played

One year in highschool you all jade

Or maybe I did I can't say

That's change it's all good we okay you freshmen find matching clicks- cuz I ain't having it

Till those freshman double practices- and I was smackin kids

Ya'll invited me back to the Hagman crib

Chris Eddie Mike June and the Hagman twins

That's a summer we can talk about and laugh a bit

Football was a blast and we had to win

Ya'll one year that don't factor in- we were still stickin tight middle passages- am I an African?

Cuz I spit so hard when I'm gassin in

Yeah 16's when I struck a passion in- rappin quick- don't understand like half of it

When I vocalize a venom that the wise have felt- from inside myslef- composed the rhyme myself- showed the homies and they thought it was hot-maybe a classic- this was more organic than pieces those corner mashups

Make original music and see their hands up

But I knew I had to confront my demons and man up

All the years I was stressin hidding my hand bruh- now you spin the record I'll start to hit ya with answers

17 when my homies had graduated I knew my senior years was irrelevant had to make it my momma made that I'm late and I'm in my classes impatient I waited till I hit the station composin up to the AM

The same year that a girl had dipped in my pocket- stole my V card straight out my wallet next to a faucet

Knew I could have waited but foolish pride had me racin the moment initiated right after leaving the basement

Yeah the pussy is power but been a star- I can see a lot more coming if I stick with these bars- sweet calligraphy sweet delivery hittin my mark

Maybe college is the place that will put me on the radar

By the time I was bout to be college bound I was coming around putting in work to polish a sound

Committed to this game like I'm Nicholson in the crowd

Recording in my dorm room closet laying it down

Knew that Chico State was the place to turn it up loud

Kids are turnin up with a 5th I turn up the sound

And as far as women you know the girl that I found

Rather found me and then started dragging me down

But she showed me love for like every flaw that I owned

My first girlfriend I could say was a stepping stone

Around nineteen you can find me shaking a hand

Took a pair of decades to find that I even can

So afraid to be till I try to grow and expand

Currently I love looking back at where I began

Currently I'm twenty no money set with a plan

Imma make my music and love myself as a man

Whose afraid to be just relate with me if you can

Cuz now when I'm performing I'm proudly raising my hand

Yeah the 3 in Proph3cY was all part of the plan

You put me on this earth and I'll do the best that I can