I take heartache to my chest
I learned it from the best
Washing out all of this regret
Wear my heart out on my sleeves
You will never let me be
You just try to tape the leak
Forgiveness is not my friend
But I have to try to make amend
I can never seem to forget
All of the nights we used to spend
Sitting at that culdasac
I hate discussing retrospect
And I hate that I can't
Trust your blood and skin and bones and empty promises like I used to
Now in this pouring rain
I'm walking down suburb sidewalks
Asking myself if I'll ever be okay
I saw your car pass
Saw you turn your head fast
As I am walking in the pouring rain
Stepping in puddles
The grass begins to muddle
My footprints indented in my brain
I saw your shadow
Consume and made me hollow
Unsure on what of me is my remain
I'm forever in your shadow
Forever a pariah to you
Would you stop and wait for me?
If I was in the pouring rain