[Verse 1]:

Yeah

I still think about every word you said to me

I still remember what it was like to love a memory

I still remember when I'd call you mine, like it was meant to me

And when we had the world, like an empire at our feet

But mentally, I always knew that'd be a memory

But heaven ain't shit if you're on earth, and I'm dead you see?

It hurts, thinking you don't want to remember me

I fucking called it love and now you'll never be a friend to me

Kiss on me and say you'd never leave, oh bitch please

You thought that he could make you feel like me

Kissing me and say you you'd never leave, fucking next to me

If you can hear my heartbeat you can probably feel it shattering

So was he really worth breaking that promise?

We were fine but you let go, that's not on us

You never cheated on me but you fucking should've

And if I'm honest I want it back, but I couldn't rip my heart out

Cause all the pain and the worry turns into scarring

And every heartbreak from me gets fucking boring

And I don't wanna be with you when you ain't even for me

I treat you like a queen and then you sleep me on the floor see?

So, so was it all what you expected love to be, Huh?

You tore me apart without even offering, shit

I know you’re looking for me inside of him, I hate that shit

I sin so much now Jesus probably wants to slit his wrists

You can't name it, you can't blame it on the jealousy

Cause I'd never do to you, what you did to me

What I asked for wasn’t much to ask, what the fuck you mean?

I’m so sorry that I cared and wasn't an ass hole, I guess that's on me

You said you ain't want official, I missed that part of it

You said this exactly why you regret it, when we broke up again

Then you back out halfway through from an argument?

Bitch, you fucking started it, fuck it if it's what God wanted

[Verse 2]:

Now I’m haunted by the demons that you never knew

How the hell does she care about me more than you?

Said you loved me, and never thought of him that ain't true

Anyone that thinks love isn’t real, this pain is proof

Cover it up, mask that shit like future

My new girl thinks I'm a God, I swear to him I can't lose her

I feel like she's lying, but she knows I’m not that stupid

So why do I trip on my ex when I’m in a drunken stupor, text

Messages, I always tell her that I love her

The next morning I want anybody fucking but her

She sends me fucking spinning like I was a rudder

She gets me just as high as low, I can’t let go, but fuck her aye

At least my new girl has actually got a fucking clue

At least she fucking got me when I say I want the truth

At least she says she wants me when I say I want her too

But when my demons come crawling why do they

Ask 'bout you?

At least I got this music and my whole team's coming through

I got people betting on my falls so I know I won't lose

Got enough painful nights in me to darken a whole room

Why do I feel like all of me is just a different part of you?

At least I got this life thank god I can’t tie a noose

Swear I already met my wife, she's enough for at least two

Maybe I’ll be happier with her, or when I’m in the booth

But I still can't sleep at night knowing that

She just isn't you

I find it hard to ever really get to know someone like you

I wear my heart on my sleeve cause I ain't afraid be abused

For it, I don't give a fuck if you have no use for it

I don't give a fuck if if you don't like it, my rain be pouring, like

Honestly bitch, I need a hundred Mil in this booth

I've been stacking up them bands for a foreign I won't use

This fake fucking rapping is all I seem to do

But just know that this one's real, and it's all because of

You