Dear Rudiff

You know, I’m thinking that I’ve had enough secrets

I been open-handed, and I got nothing to lose

But what’s left to gain?

Is it worth all that shame?

In this world, I feel intangible, not tethered to reality

Brushing your mirror ‘cause it’s taking my place right here for now

It’s glinting so clear, every star I see is full

How churlish of me not to ask permission…

Been preoccupied with wishing that Earth would take existence from me

I’m hardly outside my head anymore

Still waiting on your approval

More times than I realized

I was left unfinished—diminished

I still don’t get it yet

‘Cause I give my everything

But it seems even you don’t have my back...

And I’m left in the corner, pushing harder—a martyr!

-The promised fracture

No, I shouldn’t step forward

I done lost all of my nerve

Before my innocence splintered

And then blew away, I was dreaming better days

But no, that’s something I cannot relate to

No pain—can’t feel anyway

My turn to escape was a rat, and it’s been displaced

I bent this way ‘cause you’re the only person I can trust!

I’m hardly outside my head anymore

Still waiting on your approval

Well here I go, writing letters to ghosts

I just don’t understand, where have you been?

Now, I planned the way this will shoot

Flirt with a lie, man—that’s what I do

If I can see it, then I can fear it

And if I owned it, I could just tear it down

Instead of staring me down

Why don’t you help me by clearing this out?

If I can’t see, then I won’t fear it

I always thought you would be here for me

It’d be nice to finally hear a friendly voice just like my own

I shouldn’t be ashamed...

A life—a pulse, what more could I ask for?

Maybe I’m just feeling aged

Maybe I’m just lonely

-Tru

Innocence splintered and then blew away

I was dreaming better days

But it seems even you didn’t have my back

I’m hardly outside my head anymore

Still waiting on your approval

And here I go, writing letters to ghosts

I just don’t understand where you have been