[Verse]

I don't even trust myself

I just only trust my friends

Don't say that I have wealth

This the place where imagination ends

I just gotta make my mind cleanse

Compare my decisions to a stick that bends

I just wanna be happy again

I don't wanna ask for no amend

Just think my relationships might be fine

Don't call that stuff you didn't made 'mine'

He said i started arguments 9 times out of 10

After that, i felt broken again

I couldn't even save myself

Askin' myself and about my health

Felt weaker than the chalk

I can't evеn trust my words when i talk

Can't even trust that i intеrfere at bad times

Quoting a lot, how many dimes?

Thinkin' i ruin the mess i cause

Awake and asleep, the stuff i pause

Suicidal thoughts, its those days

Got them, subtle thoughts, one of them delays

Start to stride across, lose myself

Gettin' them rifle shots, i bruise myself

Make more mistakes, ruin' my own brain

More earthquakes, just like gruelin' my own pain

This stuff hard, i can't control myself

I see why this rough, can put a hole through a shelf

Think the pain might help

Drink the rain, pours, doesnt yelp

Father didn't learn me stuff, guess he fake

Mother learned me, not rough, she's awake

Guess i think too much, yeah

Ain't gonna be drinkin' too much, yeah

Did he even deal with his physiological phase?

He can't even think of a logical reason to make this craze

He ain't cease to amaze

He be wantin' to crease all of this blaze