Sinking or swimming was commonplace

But to many

To envy

Was my first mistake

Sorrow excuse of misguided grace

I was hopeful

And doubtful

For our own sake

Recurring

Loud and selfish beings

They keep searching

For a point in breathing

Fables and kind words

I find quite moronic

Naive believers

Were found catatonic

By way of estoppel

Good people are all fictional

I know it’s true

So why do you

Go laugh and laugh and laugh

Laugh at me

Everybody’s awful

I swear it's nothing personal

I look at you

I’ve seen a few

Small parts of me and you misconstrued

I don't believe anything at all

You're all liars

Conspired

To see my downfall

I can see through

Your fakе empathy

I don't need you

Can't see you

I'm accountable

We'rе all filthy

Loud and stupid beings

Those found guilty

Lie here cold and seething

Harsh words so colossal

Damn entitled asshole

Yet you decide to crucify

Do you find yourself still awake at night

Absolutely awful

This monster I call myself

I tried to hide

To redefine

You're soon to find that I’m

Just as guilty

I know I'm just awful

Its true I'm not exceptional

The joy to be in fallacies

So why oh why can't I just be happy

Creed words of apostle

I swear its not irrational

So take the time to be “alive”

Oh why oh why be shy just believe me