Anxiously hoping

Perpetually look for an omen

Head keeps on spinning

I'm always back at the beginning

Freefall

I'm going

But both of my eyes

Are wide open

I'd give up

But I've gone too far now

What trickled like a river

Started storming like an ocean

Get lost in indecision

When I can't handle the emotion

It gets harder

The longer

You carry the weight

The sun sets but the night

Brings the moon and the stars

It's calling

Try to make it through the night it'll be alright (alright)

Somehow make it through the day it'll be okay (okay)

Keep searching for my way to acceptance

I had my hands around the future

But it slipped right through (slipped right through)

Have you ever wanted something so, so bad

It made you so, so sad?

Have you ever fought for something so, so long

Only it goes so wrong?

I cried in vain a thousand times

When reality and dreams collide

Have you ever wanted something so, so bad

It made you so, so sad?

Self-doubt and grieving

Tired for no reason

Keep tryin' to find a way outside my shadow

Getting in my own way

Question all that I know

Do I really have enough? (do I really have enough?)

Think I'm running out of time (out of time)

Feeling like I'm hard to love

Feel like everything's on fire

What started as a whisper

Ignited into an explosion

It's hard to fit the reasons

To my oversized reactions (it gets harder)

I always walk it right up to the line of (harder)

Breaking through or having a breakdown and (harder)

I never seem to get it right

And no matter how I try it

Life keeps passing by me

Try to make it through the night it'll be alright (alright)

Somehow make it through the day it'll be okay (okay)

I keep searching for my way to acceptance, oh

I had my hands around the future

But it slipped right through (slipped right through)

Have you ever wanted something so, so bad

It made you so, so sad?

Have you ever fought for something so, so long

Only it goes so wrong?

I cried in vain a thousand times

When reality and dreams collide

Have you ever wanted something so, so bad

It made you so, so sad?

Have you ever wanted something so, so bad

It made you so, so sad?

Have you ever fought for something so, so long

Only it goes so wrong?

(It gets hard the longer you carry the weight)

I cried in vain a thousand times

When reality and dreams collide

Have you ever wanted something so, so bad

It made you so, so sad?