[Intro]

Yeah

Yeah

[Verse]

Disrespected by people I fuck with

Felt neglected by people I trusted

Left me for dead, now all of 'em duckin'

Chewed me up and they spit me out like it was nothin'

Now I know that love, it was never real

And I got so many wounds that'll never heal

But I put my faith in God, I'm protected still

I need like ten mill', independent, fuck a deal

It's been a minute, I been gone for a while, huh?

Court cases, my lawyer left me on trial, huh?

They want me to fold, but how can I put down these aces?

They all want me to quit and throw in the towel, huh?

Little do they know, God got me

Fettuccine with the bosses like I'm John Gotti

Certain people that I peep movin' real sloppy

All these people close to me gettin' real oppy

Like, who can I trust now?

Who can I call to have my back when I touch down?

Who can I trust to bust back when it's gun sounds?

And fuck a watch, I need a friend, not a bustdown

My niggas rollin' blunts now, niggas pourin' Hennessy

I be more worried 'bout these friends than my enemies

I know from the start that they been plottin' on endin' me

Even if they kill me, I'll still leave a legacy

So how the fuck you next to me and still wishin' I fail?

All the years I talked to my father through a cell

Locked in a box, my own blood, it was hell

Tears from my eyes fall, but nobody could tell (Nobody could tell)

And though we had our differences, I know my pops would kill for me

I gave my all to cats who wouldn't split the bill with me

I gave my heart to the world and you know it's yours truly 'til I'm gone

Shout out to the fans who still with me

Ayy, most my old friends gave up on me

And my ex just tryna one-up on me

Same time, I know it's niggas tryna dump on me

I should ride around with the pistol grip pump on me

I mean, they tried to kill me, they really tried

Bullet wounds in my flesh, but I'm still alive

And you might know my story, but you'll never know the pain of watchin' tears fall slow from your mother's eyes

Not knowin' if her son's gonna make it

But I promise, ma, we'll be okay, just gotta be patient

I'm tryna cope, but constantly losin' the ones I love

I could give two fucks 'bout what the internet sayin', yeah

I know who I am, I know what I'm worth

Try to drag me down, it'll never work

They can say that I'm nothin' and they can say I'm a failure

But they can never say my heart is made of fuckin' dirt

And even though I can't sleep

I try to close my eyes to escape from reality (Escape from reality)

And I'm runnin' towards this vision, I just feel like the devil's right behind chasin' after me (Chasin' after me)

I used to try to tell people I'll make it with this music, they just turned around and laughed at me (Turned around and laughed at me)

But don't think anything's impossible

This life I'm livin' now they used to tell me was a fantasy, so

All my prosperin' artists, I got a plan

Start where you are, use what you have

Feel what you feel, do what you can

Prove everybody wrong, come up with a plan

'Cause I dropped out of school, believed in myself

Turned this pain into music and nobody helped

I was lost, can't describe the pain that I felt

But I knew I was special like nobody else, you know

[Bridge]

The anxiety is one of the craziest things that I have

Dealin' with that kind of anxiety after bein' stabbed and shot, a lot of, uh, paranoia

And a lot of, just a lot of things with me where, where it's hard for me to be around people

It may or may not seem like it, but it's like real difficult (Yeah)

[Chorus]

And when it falls down, how many numbers in my phone can I call right now?

Are they here to lift me up or here to watch me drown?

How many people can I trust when it all falls down?

Yeah, when it falls down, how many numbers in my phone can I call right now?

Are they here to lift me up or here to watch me drown?

How many people can I trust when it all falls down?