Rat (rough draft)

By Penelope Scott

Released on September 1, 2020

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[Verse 1]

I come from scientists and atheists and white men who kill God

They make technology, high quality, complex physiological

Experiments and sacrilege in the name of public good

They taught me everything, just like a daddy should

And you were beautiful and vulnerable and power and success

God damn, I fell for you, your rockets ships, your flamethrowers, and tech

I studied code because I wanted to do something great like you

And the real tragedy is half of it was true


[Pre-Chorus]

But we've been fuckin' mean, we're elitist, we're as flawed as any church

And this faux-rad West coast dogma has a higher fuckin' net worth

I bit the apple 'cause I trusted you, it tastes like Thomas Malthus

Your proposal is immodest and insane

And I hope someday Selmers rides her fuckin' train


[Chorus]

I loved you, I loved you, I loved you, it's true

I wanted to be you and do what you do

I lived here, I loved here, I thought it was true

I feel so stupid, and so used

I feel so used


[Verse 2]

I was your baby, your firstborn, the hot girl in your comp-sci class

And I was Darwin's prep school dream, bred, born and raised to kick your ass

I fell for circuit boards, rocket ships, pictures of the stars

If you could only be what you pretend you are

When I said take me to the moon, I never meant take me alone

I thought if mankind toured the sky, it meant that all of us could go

But I don't want to see the stars if they're just one more piece of land

For us to colonize, for us to turn to sand


[Pre-Chorus]

'Cause we're so fuckin' mean, we're so elitist, we're as fucked as any church

And this faux-rad West coast dogma has a higher fuckin' net worth

I bit the apple 'cause I loved you, and why would you lie?

And then I realized that you're just as naïve as I am

Oh, you're so traumatized it makes me want to cry


[Chorus]

You dumb motherfucker

I loved you, I loved you, I loved you, it's true

I wanted to be you and do what you do

I lived here, I loved here, I bought it, it's true

I feel so stupid and so abused


[Verse 3]

Well, I don't want to eat the rich, I'd have to eat my heroes first

And my tuition's paid by blood, I might deserve your fate or worse

But, I don't need your god damn money, I don't need jack shit from you

So when I speak, you bet your life my words are true

Let me level with you, man, as someone else with the game

I took the help, I took the cash, I would've taken your last name

So if any girl on Earth should get to make a call about this

It should be me, and as I see it, you're a dick


[Pre-Chorus]

So fuck your tunnels, fuck your cars, fuck your rockets, fuck your cars again

You promised you'd be Tesla, but you're just another Edison

'Cause Tesla broke a patent, all you ever broke were hearts

I can't believe you tore humanity apart

With the very same machines that could have been our brand new start


[Chorus]

And the worst part is

I loved you, I loved you, I loved you, it's true

And sometimes I think maybe I still do

I lived here, I loved here, I bought it, it's true

I'm so embarrassed, I feel abused

I feel so used

I feel so used

Take me to the moon

'Cause I feel so used

I feel so used