Now I know Autism is a part of me

It's not an ailment, it's not temporary

Accepting, Unmasking

Feeling, Losing control

Every moment I forget

The next I reflect on the memory

Every moment I remember more

Bring with them so many memories

Looking back at my life

Always something new

To identify and process

It's exhausting, full blown burnout

Burned out, no no I can't

Stop

I can't stop remembering

Emotionally unprocessed memories

My brain on overdrive blowing smoke

I'm burned out, such heavy baggage

I love opening up

I have no problem thinking (solution or ideologies)

I have no negativity or integrity limiting

Left inside of me (rehab)

I'm taking your advice (yes I do)

You can look and tell"stop analyzing, damn!"

But nothing helps

I have to go through stage two (Stage two!)

Stage zero was living my life

(The experience)

Stage one diagnoses and

Neurotypical therapy

(That's a waste man)

Having no solutions

No technique I can trust

I was noticing I didn't get much

Out of all these therapies

(Such in compatibility)

That's insane to me

(Who me? Who am I am?)

Stage two began as such

You tried and tired out all of the popular stuff

Now you need a rough, something real

That will help me live my life

I got exhausted trying everything

For fourteen years

Nothing works I want to cry

But I still have no tears

Now you open up to new ideas

Hearing again all the neuro typical stuff

Disconnecting, Resetting

Understanding I'm different

Really really, Truly realistically

(Different)

Ask your psychiatrist

Do they have neuro diverse training

And if they don't (don't trust em)

Go to an autism expert (trust em instead)

They'll see you

See you are (Different)

I got exhausted trying everything!

Fourteen years!

Nothing works I want to cry

But I still have no tears

Did you try just being?

Stop hiding and just feeling?

Can you do that without losing your head?

No? I see

How about neuro divergent therapy instead?

Got dang it sounds the same but differently!

Unblocking my brain

I have to work through

Lost memories to indulge in

I want to feel those feelings again!

But now without going insane

The way to go is long

But I know what I'm doing now

Yes I know now

And it's working!

I'm crying!

We'll see where we go from here