P.T.E. (PastThreeEnds) here

This time rephrasing

One, two, zing, four

Sometimes I can't fully control myself

I just say things I don't even mean

Make assumptions on a whim

Lose the thread, forget the scene

Processing while the world turned

Felt all those unimportant emotions

Stuck in the dark

My soul in slow motion

Can't hold it back anymore

I see what silence was for

Let's try this again

I learn, I hold

The feelings they said were worthless or cold

Of course it's child abuse

But how can they

Ow, look at where they're from

But I'm sick of that being their rule

Cause pain doesn't cancel out what they done

Part of our past, what a lame excuse

Just a leash for a noose

Stuck in the dark

My soul in slow motion

Can't hold it back anymore

I see what silence was for

What's special about you

Is your power comes from silence

I finally said

I saw a better way

I live by the feelings you threw away

I stopped trying

But you failed me more

Told me to reframe while you hid in the war

You didn't break the chains

Didn't face the traumas

Left me with the wreckage and still brought the drama

Trauma, anxiety, shame, war

None of it stopped me but you did more

You two, petty souls, shameless control

Abused me to death, with a smiling role

Stuck in the dark

My soul in slow motion

Can't hold it back anymore

I see what silence was for

Thank science my anger silenced my logic

Cause I was this close to being the tragic

Ended three lifelines

It's only the physics that didn't comply

Wrong calculated by, already said goodbye

P.T.E

Fourteen, eighteen, nineteen

Still here, past three ends

You know what I learned to internalize

You're to blame, exactly like I always claimed

Stuck in the dark

My soul in slow motion

Can't hold it back anymore

I see what silence was for