I have not eaten in days

At least not a thing substantial anyway

And oh what was it I was going to say

It slipped right out my brain

And I have not smiled in weeks

And I have not laughed, at least not genuinely

And all my friends look like they’re strangers to me

Oh what a sight to have seen

But I have been trying, been writing it down

Yeah I have been crying, been pulling my hair out

But everything that I tried

Every moment I have known

Like 20 minutes with my father seem more precious now that I am grown but how I've wanted for the future

How I've wanted for another

To write it down in black and white and bloody cursive, man

Cause I lie sometimes when I get nervous

That I thought that I would feel better, feel settled by now

I thought that I’d feel different by now