[Verse 1]

Intro: This is not supposed to hurt you

Dear mom, lately I'm fighting with myself but fuck wealth

Fuck my Health minding my business my mind's on the mic

Psyched out, I can't deal with you telling me, you want to kill yourself

You crying, no fuck stop you fucking important to me

I ain't even lying, I went away shut up like a clam

I just did because you choose him, this dude acting worse than a grim

Still to this day I don't know understand why him

He committed the worst scams he punch until you couldn't stand

You tell everybody you love him but I don't buy this

Leave him but that's too much of a demand where have you been

You slowly disband, an abusive guy is not a real man

Shit after this I could possibly be on a lam

[Hook]

Right now I am not sorry, listen carefully

Listen this is just a letter

Don't ask me about this

It ain't gon' get better

[Verse 2]

Intro: yeah thanks for saving me! you saved my fuckin' life

I wanna thank my aunt, I wish you could listen to this but you can't

I'm scared you'd hate me if you'd know, I'm doing this rap, don't get me wrong

This shit wasn't planned, but I was drowning and somehow stranded

On this land, when I didn't know where to go, at your house, I was allowed to stay

When someone really needed money, you was there to pay

I was not used to someone helping me, so I thought you'd just play

But you was really like checking me, asking if I feel ok

I say yes, but I'm the night, I lye and cry and pray

My life was black and you sprayed it gray

Not really white,but enough for a thank you to say

Since you was there to help me, I knew I could always trust you

Sad is, you're the only one, I really respect you!

[Hook]

Right now I am not sorry, listen carefully

Listen this is just a letter

Don't ask me about this

It ain't gon' get better

[Verse 3]

Intro: with this I wanna let you know how much I hate you!

Look, now Michele please listen closely I'm tryin' to explain it to you slowly

When I first got to know you, you was some kind of role model

I even looked up to you, but I swear man because of you

I been to hell and back, You're a man beating up his woman

And you want respect? No, for you I lost all respect

Couldn't even stop beating up a child's mom, after it begged

You never gave a fuck how it affected us, You minded, your own business

Never cared how we feel, don't try to, make me think this ain't real

I'm tryna deal with this, and don't care anymore

How you feel. Fuck man, lately you're drinking way too much

You become an drug addict and alcoholic, I don't want us to stay in touch

For some time I tucked, until you found me, fuck!

[Hook]

Right now I am not sorry, listen carefully

Listen this is just a letter

Don't ask me about this

It ain't gon' get better

[Verse 4]

Intro: lets keep going yo this is your death penalty

Dear asshole You think it's funny calling a women a slut and spitting at her

Forgot you have a son who never meets his father

With you life is harder, everyone notice you ain't ain't the proper

Get the fuck outta my life, I suffered enough though

The bruises are covered but I'm tough, you always too Ffucking ruff

Puff another one, drink the 10th beer shit, beat another innocent person up

I'm writing about this since I first saw you hitting her

You looked at me and promised never ever again

Fuck you should think twice, before making promises

She has always claimed, that together you both feel marvelous

The consequences and my trauma, are you're fault and Fucking ominous

Please stop now, can't you see what you've done?, she's losing her consciousness!

[Hook]

Right now I am not sorry, listen carefully

Listen this is just a letter

Don't ask me about this

It ain't gon' get better

[Verse 5]

Intro: I know I'm not perfect, but I don't give a fuck

This is dedicated to everybody Yeah I'm sorry for everything what happened

I'm sorry If I saddened you, but my soul is blackened yo

When I left you thought I abandoned you but I abandoned him

And I'm sorry to everyone who had to indulge my every whim

But fuck lately I feel like I got an evil twin

I need to take my time, to find that piece of mind

I know I'm a burden but I'm in a bit of a bind

I'm ashamed to ask for help cause I already did several times

But I can't find the way on my own, maybe one day, It will be too late

When y'all pick up the phone, I don't blame you

Cause before, these feeling have never been shown, Well that's what y'all think

I told you I don't feel good, feels like I sink

I need to rethink all my decisions

Let me go my own way, I don't need no fucking descriptions

On my mission my regrets are steady following me

I think I'm steered, my ability to breath disappears!

[Hook]

Right now I am not sorry, listen carefully

Listen this is just a letter

Don't ask me about this

It ain't gon' get better