Released on March 11, 2019

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[Intro]

I keep it in case I wanna ever commit suicide, okay?

Wow, oh

Oh my God, you're ser-, you're serious

But why, Brian?

You wouldn't understand, you're just a kid

Then, I could try

I don't know, sometimes it's all too much

What is?

Life, everything, just having the gun here

Knowing there's a way out, it helps


[Verse]

Seeing my fears come alive

I feel like I'm dead inside

I feel like I'm dead inside

I went through hell and back

You would never understand

Getting trapped in yourself

I'm screaming, I'm calling for help

It's quiet as a mouse in here

I just gotta get out of here

But I can't, and you can't help me

If I come back please hold me gently

And now I'm back, I lived a thousand lives

If I die let it please be by your side

Seeing my fears come alive

I feel like I'm dead inside

I feel like I'm dead inside

I went through hell and back

You would never understand

Getting trapped in yourself

I'm screaming, I'm calling for help

It's quiet as a mouse in here

I just gotta get out of here

But I can't, and you can't help me

If I come back please hold me gently

And now I'm back, I lived a thousand lives

If I die, let it please be by your side