Memory Destruction - Intellectual

It's night and day, it's night and day, just stop it

I try to hold on but you just push, and push, and push

Left without attention

Entire memory destruction

I can't feel a thing, I'm dy-ing

The suicide of my human functions

I can't feel the pull anymore

Blow me away, I can't stand it here

Pull the fucking trigger

(My sense uprooted)

(Like a fallen tree)

Get the fuck out of (my head)

It's done, slice away, today will be a dead day

I can't stand you, I can't stand you

Just put it down, put it down, put it down, put it down

Can't let go again

Force fed life

Lament to me all the times you've thrown up in a day

That you got so high you stayed like a film stuck on replay

And you can't ignore the feeling steady eating clawing at your eyes

You're spiraling into yourself like you're not about to drop and die

So pick yourself up and look into a mirror

(I know it's easier said than done)

You don't know shit about what this is

How could you give advice when you've never lived this, bitch?

And I give in

I fell for it

This joke of life

Which we all live

Turn the key and drive

We still got daylight

But it stays too late

Same shit different day

I've been wracking my brain

Trying to find a way out of here

Run, run, run, run

Run away from the people who think they know

Trust in yourself and you'll make it through anything

Sometimes I find my safety in a zip up but that's not the point

Sliding past the day I feel a ripple and I tell my story

But I can't fit enough words in this fucked up speech

So I'll pass the mic to Hartford County CT, yo ZB

(Crawling through the mud

On my own shit

And through it all

I don't need a little fix

So find your safety in one more hit)

Look at me like that I'll smack your fucking shit

While you're sitting flushed and bloated with your head down

Years of living through this meltdown, I'm let down

Father figure who you mother fuck?

Life feeling as empty as my pant legs

You flee, living while my eyes bleed

Do you resent me?

Distorted memory, destruction of you and me

Crack a beer so you can fucking beat me (Fucking beat me)

Please show me how you really love me (Really love me)

You want a fucking hit, bite this

I'll make you see, that's how I get my fucking fix

(I think I'm gonna be sick

I'm gonna be sick

I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault

Its your fucking fault)

I'll do whatever I can to pass the time a little faster

But you keep turning me red like getting stabbed in a white shirt

What do we do now? He's too far gone

Well I'll just lock up the house, turn the alarm on

And we'll imprison the bastard

So he doesn't end up as much of a screw up as his dad was

I wonder when this pain will end

I can't see through, a hand to lend

I found my place

Shackled and chained to my head

Straight edge until my brain's dead