[Verse 1]

And it's a lifestyle

That we live out

And we do not talk about

Cuz we are not living proud

See my mother and my father

And I know what's going down

But quiet it is kept

From the rest of the world

Because I do accept

No pity or no sympathy

Just make the world remember me

Though promises I met

This childhood turned me viciously

And I'm out for respect

Since simply it's empathy

That children do neglect

And now upset

Unable to repress the things I'm willing to forget

I cannot look pass the things I'm wishing to forgive

And so I live

With pent up anger

Constant danger

Any second I may slip

Into a place foreign

That I visit when I trip

So bottle up I got enough

I struggle not to sip

Not Hennessy but vengeance see

Is sweeter to the lip

And so I dip off

In silence I can see all

Through my tears

I watch as they fall

Then laugh as I have to

Cuz if I don't I may ball

Out my eyes

Over lies

And commitments that they broke

I stay low and label

Then I forgive em once more

My family implant in me a moral code

[Hook]

Do as I say not as I do

Till today I hold true

But tell my children

I'll do better for you

And though times were different

Needed better from you

I plan a future

And I'm kinda confused

If you love somebody

How do you put em through

What you put me through

[Verse 2]

And now in this society

I try and try and try to see

Someone who takes sobriety

And holds it to the light for free

Cuz suicidal tendencies

Say you don't value life to me

Not a habit not an addict

I just want to have it

It's not a drug just want a buzz

And you say you living happily

That's crap to me cuz actually

You are someone that's sad to be

Oh I know you had to cope

You disrespectful bag of bones

It's people that done been through

Things that you will never equal

And in the morning thanking God

Cuz yesterday done had its sequel

You cannot be feeble

Minded enough

That either of us

Would ever buy that it was

So much going on

That you had to try drugs

So save it for em

That let you play dumb

I can't afford it

It hurt me too much

See

I learned right and wrong

Before me writing songs

Where you can ride along

And even on my own

I knew that I was being strong

Too many tears I cried in life

I knew I had to wipe my eyes

And sacrifice till I survive

And I can finally live my life

How I want to

Cuz quiting's what I won't do

No matter what I go through

It's no truth in coping

In open space and mind you

Know who you really are

But you will never go that far

Faded and jaded

Mortal man created

To be basic and face it

You faceless now say it

[Hook]

Do as I say not as I do

Till today I hold true

But tell my children

I'll do better for you

And though times were different

Needed better from you

I plan a future

And I'm kinda confused

If you love somebody

How do you put em through

What you put me through