Truth Is - Intellectual

Sitting on my bed thinking about

You

Sitting on my bed thinking about the first day we met

Was a long time ago you didn't show too much interest

But I could tell feeling my heart beat through my chest

That I might have found the one

If I could only admit it to myself

I guess at that time you saw me at my best

And you were probably thinking

"Must be nice to live by her side

Laughing like a child

She got a smile that brightens up the night sky"

We went through a lot of stuff that broke us apart

And when we finally had a chance to be happy

I sank in the dark

And I was more blue then that hair you loved so much

Now I can talk about it all I want

Say I healed myself

Got myself out of this dump

But truth is I'd forget to mention

When everybody was acting like they were blind

You had no other choice to see it

It was all over your mind

Everything I have to live with

You have to live with it too

And when somebody ask if I'm okay

I want to tell them to ask you

It took me a while to express it

I'll give it to you

Guess I had to write this song

'Cause that's the best way

I can do it if I have to say the truth

So I'mma say the truth

Truth is I'm sorry

'Cause when I'm up in the sky you're never happy

Truth is I'm sorry

For when I closed my eyes when you said you were lonely

Truth is I'm sorry

Sorry for those times you had to deal with me

Getting drunk all the time

Those fuckin' drugs on the table

When you were coming home

I'm sorry that when you talk I'm always on my phone

I'm sorry if even for one second

I was the reason you felt alone

And if I have to protect you from everybody else

I make sure first that I protect you from myself

Cause I've seen that light in your eyes

First day we met

But I also seen that light die

On those dark nights

When you looked at my face

That's why I spend my days rubbing these rocks

So the light can spark again

Trying my best to make you laugh

'Cause too many nights I made you cry

And you probably see me feeling guilty all the time

Getting that expensive stuff you never ask me to buy

Walking through the whole city to find your favorite thing to eat

'Cause truth be told I thought you needed gifts to love me

'Cause truth be told I never thought somebody could love me

You changed my mind

Told me otherwise

Proved me that I didn't have to be in the dark for you to shine

I don't want your feelings hurt and

This is not the life that you deserve

Promise I'mma do anything to make it work

Truth is I'm sorry

'Cause when I'm up in the sky you're never happy

Truth is I'm sorry

For when I closed my eyes when you said you were lonely

Truth is I'm sorry

'Cause when I'm up in the sky you're never happy

Truth is I'm sorry

For when I closed my eyes when you said you were lonely