Hey

Oh yeah

Let's go

Got a lot of work ahead of me

Got a lot on my plate

I spent a lot of days with not a lot to say I ate, aw

Still trying to grow and say there's not a lot to say I hate

This life go back and forth like a tennis game

Last night felt really down but today I feel great

Sometimes it takes one thing to brighten up your day

I'm trying to make that thing come from within

What I'm talking about

Uh, self care

And I'm doing better than ever

Yeah I'm well aware

Been working on my mind like it was a full time job

You don't get a lot of help from where I come from

But nowadays I'm loving me

Sеtting boundaries but more importantly

When I finish this song I'll say I'm proud of mе

The sun's coming out can't wait to party

And running on the beach

Stare at the waves

Say goodbye to winter and hello to the good days

Got a lot of scars made a lot of mistakes

This life feels like a war running out of bandaids

But I will win the fight even if I bleed from both hands

I'm so thankful happiness on the way (Hey, hey)

This life go back and forth like a tennis game

Back and forth

Back and forth

Back and forth

Back and forth

Back and forth

So much poison in this room

Can't breathe

So much pain in this heart

Can't sleep

(Pain, pain, pain, pain)

Nothing good at sight

I cuddle up with drugs because they feel so right

Head is real cloudy

Don't feel the need to talk to nobody

Y'all are nobody to me

At the crib with the drinks that's where I be

Might watch some cartoons

Because I'm stuck at ten

They say you're stuck around the time

The traumatic stuff happened

No one to cry to this time

Not even back then

Had to write my anger down, shit I think I broke my pen

Soul is tortured with a gift to write down the pain

You fucking vultures fly around above my head

You'll have to wait until I'm dead

I gave you more than enough

I'm still waiting to get paid

It ain't funny no more

Life played a joke on me

Me don't got time for jokes

Tried it too many times but I'm done now

I don't trust no more

My therapist cry when I tell her what I've been through

I'll spend the next week being my own villain

I don't got time for you (Time for you)

For now I'm busy getting anxious

Looking at the world like it's filled with danger

I lock the door and close the curtains

If I hear someone down the stairs

I might talk to myself in whispers

While my eyes getting bigger

They all left

Nobody took care of me that's what I think

That's why I'm living with all these insecurities

Like can somebody ever love me

Am I worth it

Do you think I will ever see this mark

That they left on me fade away

I want to fade away

Typing on my phone

This will be my last day what's the quickest way

This is not what I signed for

This is not what I asked for

Just wanted to be loved

What do I feel this huge hole in me for

What happened to me

I remember this morning I was quite happy

Had to let some anger out

Felt so confident I could you knock you out just like Ali

How did I end up crying here so lonely

Oh yeah, it's just another day of BPD