Hey.. hey, hey. Reflect

Can I? Can I.. reflect?

[Verse 1]

Sometimes I ponder with myself what the meaning of life is

Is it demons and fighting or is it leading it righteous.?

I find myself among the heathens and peep I'm just like them

Except I'm believing in Christ and wanna be in his likeness

Nah I ain't come here to preach, just wanna start a discussion

My life's melodic, it makes sense that my heart is percussion

Now don't that sound beat?

Got monologues around me in abundance

So I'm hoping that my actions speaking loudly

And my pride is silenced, and my ego's quiet

And my mind is hungry, libido on a diet

My Lord is able, heck of a God he is

Ironic how these crowded thoughts can earn the boy an audience

Look at my past, you'll see this state of mind that I be in is golden like Curry

But even 30 gotta ride the bench

And I ain't being pretentious, that's just my confidence

But I won't allow it to make the blemish anonymous

I fight with demons, this anxiety is obvious

So if it feel like I'm being distant, I probably is

My past is tainted by broken condoms and promises

The kamikaze, compiling comments that got some common sense

Back when commissary was common as Pop's consequence

I emerged a visionary and planned out all my accomplishments

So now I'm on a roll, making moves for niggas to document

And all of y'all behind, better put some crimson in your condiments.... catch up..

[Bridge]

A wise man told me everybody's something..

I give you my all, don't you make it all for nothing

[Verse 2]

How can you blame me when everything you gave me made me?

I ain't heard from my Pops since he said that he hate me

My flesh and blood, no father, he foul

Searching for words but the only thing to conjure is "wow"

Bottle of vodka to drown

Chase it with some pride and swallow it down

To fight the demons til tomorrow is found

But by the look of it, it's lost in the whirlwind

And bump it if the world end tonight

I can say I did right by my girlfriend.. sike!

False statement, tried to run but I can't escape it

Tears fall, hoping a flower grow up from the pavement

Empty wishes man, how can I recover?

I got this nigga on the texts sending threats to mother

I used to believed him when he said that he love us

And now i think nothing of him

5 deep, word to my sister and brothers

So rest in peace

He ain't dead yet but to me dog, he ain't alive

Had two of my aunties die

Trying to keep the pain inside..

Can I? Can I..... reflect?