Its 12 o'clock I'm feeling sick i made a tv dinner

Coming home from work out in the dead of winter

Wife is gone because she left me for another

Actually my brother, guess we really didn't even love each other

My seed is barren Karens pregnant with a baby

Nephew should'a been my son, they wonder if I'm goin crazy

I wonder too i let it fester all inside

It seems its easier for me if I'm pretending that she up and died

I'm aching up inside and dying in my mind

Its like i thought I had provided everything it hurts I try to hide it

Union buddies think I'm nutty see the open wound

As soon as i arrive you feel the silence overcoming the room

I think I'm doomed, confused, I'm headed for a tomb

Consumed by memories and sadness never laughter only mood is gloom

And I'm a lose it soon I feel it every second

Reckon I should end it quick the only questions whats the best of methods

[Verse 2]

December 24th I'm sitting in my shorts

The sports is on the tube i signed the papers for divorce

I called my mother on the phone and told her that i love her

Told me that were brothers and to fix it but i stay the course

Instead i wrote a letter

I said the world is betteroff without me in it

And how I wish that I had never met her

And I remember when i read her all my vows

And how the crowd had faded out and now I'm lying on my couch

Smoking cigarettes regretting all our bouts

He don't deserve her took the steel reserve and put it to my open mouth

This ain't a home its just a house and so i show it

Throwing empties on the floor i think I pissed all on the fuckin sofa

I know its over gazing at the family photos

Man these polaroids destroy me summer nights in southern minnesota

I feel it get to me; the memories, the history

The shotguns in my mouth i pull the trigger and spray the best of me

[Verse 3]

His life is over my brothers lying on the sofa

Its bitter sweet the guy was farthest from a casanova

I felt so guilty for my role in this whole situation

But nobody is talking bout his other side the guy was satan

Blatant punches to the face if he was raging

Karens parents tried to save her grazed her with straightened razor

Domestic calls persisted his fists was always lifted

Shifted to a villain jealous Jamie thats the name we'd give him

She came to me for help when things were at their lowest

She was hoping i could lend a hand we made a plan and set it in motion

We put her in a hostel, we knew that he'd be hostile

Waited for him after work and put my pistol to his nostril

I told em slowly that their sacrament was over

He was drunk but think the metal barrel barely made him sober

From there i stayed with karen case he came to kill

I didn't mean to fall in love although it quickly happened still

It made him ill to know she left him for his brother

But that wasn't in the plan we just had shifted close to one another

And now I'm at his grave just wishing it was different

That he hadn't changed into that evil person that existed