(Hook)

I yearn to self-destruct

Never feel like I’m enough

Wanna sew my eyelids shut

Cause I keep waking up with the taste of blood

I burn and scorch my lungs

Never taste it on my tongue

Wanna feel what it’s like to run

Without my feet in the earth getting stuck

(Verse)

To my thoughts I may succumb

I’ve learned to trust my gut

My head hurts, heart thinks too much

Waiting for the day I’m snuffed

Stuff my throat with ash and blunts

Living under a black sun

I’m feeling colorless today

Like every pigment is fading gray

I wish I could just feel okay

And not this throbbing in my brain

I ruminate, drilling through the pain

The same longing for a way out

Some kind of means of escape

But even still, I stay

Immobilized by memories framed

(In my mind)

I hold on to the ghosts as they fade

Dancing to the moonlight’s melody as we sway

But in the morning, all the music dissipates

Phantoms evaporate, they’re gone without a trace

(Hook)

I yearn to self-destruct

Never feel like I’m enough

Wanna sew my eyelids shut

Cause I keep waking up with the taste of blood

I burn and scorch my lungs

Never taste it on my tongue

Wanna feel what it’s like to run

Without my feet in the earth getting stuck

I yearn to self-destruct

Never feel like I’m enough

Wanna sew my eyelids shut

Cause I keep waking up with the taste of blood

I burn and scorch my lungs

Never taste it on my tongue

Wanna feel what it’s like to run

Cause I keep coming back after I’ve been shunned