freak show

By NOTLEWY

On orca

Released on October 21, 2020

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[Verse]

I'm trapped inside this house of mirrors

And I can't escape

Every corner that I turn I see something I hate

I can't stand to be the reason your mind is astray

I'm just a burden, just a problem

Just a bunch of dead weight

But what if I told you I could make it all go away

With the squeeze of a trigger

All of my thoughts are erased

In the coldest night of winter I burn into flames

Don't you go pointing fingers

I'm all that's to blame

As I'm faced in my demise

The one I despise

Everywhere I see his face

Got me losing my mind

Sending chills down the stainless steel in my spine

My reflection isn't real

And this body and mine

A deadly weapon

The perception I have of myself

They all lie to me and say they don't feel how I feel about myself

I'm just a freak and I know they see it too

Sometimes I wish I was oblivious

And I never knew

Yeah, sometimes I wish that I never knew


[Chorus]

Yeah, my life is just one big freak show

And my time here is one big fucking joke

Yeah, my life is just one big freak show

This body is not where I belong

Just a scrawny, pale, bitch

With weak bones

Everybody always stares at me

So cold

I'm a loser, I'm a walking freak show

This body means nothing to me anymore


[Outro]

(I'm just a loser)

(Just a walking freak show)

(I'm just a scrawny, pale, bitch with weak bones)

(Everybody always stares at me, cold)

('Cause I'm a loser, I'm a walking freak show)