survive - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I try so hard and I'm looking for a change

It breaks my heart cause I'll never see that day

I get a call and I'm pressing the decline and

I'm feeling down bad, so my health is on decline

I can feel it in my chest where the darkness resides

I'm on the brink of Hell, don't know why I even try

I find it hard to make all these choices

Bottle it up until I hear all of these voices

[Pre-Chorus]

I been so lost in all of these vibes

Late nights got me thinking about all of the bad times

Wishing I wasn't alive (Wishing I wasn't alive)

Wake me up from this Hellish dream

[Chorus]

I feel all the fire once it starts to cave in

Losing my mind and I can't ever win

Can not be myself if I feel like Imma die

Try to be happy but death is always on my mind

I'm not really living if I'm just tryna survive

Staring at the stars wondering if I'm alright

Feeling down and its always grey cloudy skies

Why should I try if I feel down all the time?

[Verse 2]

I think I'm running out of options

(Cause every time I try, I just feel numb)

I feel the Reaper coming, I just won't run

(I'm staying inside my house, I avoid the sun)

Why should I try with all of this anxiety?

Feels like I'm just being broken from apart inside of me

And when I'm down I push everyone away

So why do I try if I'll die someday?

And I know that I'll mess it up, it's my fault

Noones ever there to catch you when I go fall

So, can anyone tell me why I feel like this?

Lost all sense of motivation and it just hurts to exist