[Verse 1]

When I'm in bliss, I'm longing for hell

It's like I'm hoping for misery inside of my head

It's all hanging by a thread

And I don't wanna be saved

I don't wanna be saved

These thoughts of a deathwish

I'm desperate but I'm terrified of feeling selfish

Inside I'm all alone

Love, you embraced me, but still I feel so empty

[Chorus]

And I

I feel it in my bones, I just lose control

And I

I feel it in my soul, I just can't let go

It gets the best of me

When my mind gets stuck in spinning circles

It gets so hard to reach

The reality I'm grasping for

[Verse 2]

I'm a mess, I'm a beautiful mess

I've been a fellow friend with my demons for so long

Worn a mask, it doesn't fit at all

I made myself believe that I'm here for something

A stranger to the real world

Let me remain the unknown

[Chorus]

And I

I feel it in my bones, I just lose control

And I

I feel it in my soul, I just can't let go

It gets the best of me

When my mind gets stuck in spinning circles

It gets so hard to reach

The reality I'm grasping for

[Bridge]

For so long, hell's been feeling like my home

For so long, I've been speaking for other tongues

But I dont wanna be saved

(Remain the unknown)

[Chorus]

And I

I feel it in my bones, I just lose control

And I

I feel it in my soul, I just can't let go

It gets the best of me

When my mind gets stuck in spinning circles

It gets so hard to reach

The reality I'm grasping for