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When everything you do in life is fuckin' critisized

It's hard to find a valid reason keepin' you alive

When you feel that you got nothin' but yourself and all this time

It eats at your brain, holds you down, makes you paralyzed

I'm paranoid on life and not a person bats an eye

When I cry, I don't tell a soul, I keep it all inside

I fuckin' hate this life but my mind is what I got

I don't listen when I'm poppin' and they tellin' me to stop

Now I can't fathom why these women got me fucked up in this state

I can't deal with all this drama, only so much I can take

It makes me a shitty person, I can deal with all the hatе

If you don't like me, I don't mind becausе it's probably my mistake

Liar, thief, pussy, what else?

What you gotta say to make me fuckin' hate myself?

Wishes fuckin' granted, I can't keep my mental health above the line of happiness

You feel good about yourself?

I look in the mirror, see what I don't understand

Anxiety so big that I could use a couple xans

My depression play it safe, it only comes out when it can

I don't talk about this shit 'cause then I'm less than man

I try to open up and I get shunned out by whoever

My ex-girlfriend didn't care about my feelings whatsoever

The people I cut out, they don't feel when I feel pressure

The only place I like is in these EQ's and Compressors

I'm not reachable, my phone is always airplane

I hate being seen, when I step out I'm wearin' shades

Don't talk to me public, no this isn't just a phase

I really hate people, all they do is ruin my days

If that makes me an dick then I'll own that shit with pride

I could really care if that might drive you from my side

Loyalty is dead, my blood is cold, red in my eyes

A thing that never phases me is cuttin' off the ties

They say I'm soundin' miserable, but how you think I feel?

I'm just tryna be a star and put the work right in the field

I got nothing else to live for, might as well just grab the wheel

Relations aren't there for me no more, my heart concealed

I hate the way I handle my emotions if I'm honest

I avoid communication even with the county's hottest

I'm tryna make a difference, but I can't tell of I made progress

The problem life or death and I don't know of I can solve it