[Verse 1]

It’s been a long life

I’ve been through many long nights

I remember laying in bed holding my knife

I can easily say I was a kid trying to survive

I don’t think you understand how far I strive

But now it’s my turn to drive

So I dive head first

I burst open a world I used to live alone

Wake up in the morning putting on Deodorant and cologne

Wanted to smell nice for the pretty ladies

But at the same time ignored every single Daisy

I couldn’t date someone while shit at home was happening

Laying in the pitch black imagining

A bеtter place

Trust me baby girl I will nеver forget your face

I was catching a case of wanting to chase you down the hall

Ask you for your number and if I could call

But I said fuck it my chances are small

Then I remembered home

I don’t even have a phone

When I was younger we played sticks and stones

I did date this one girl

She thought I wanted to kiss quick

I decided to give up cause I wasn’t dealing with that shit

Just wanted to talk face to face

Anywhere is better than this place

Nothing can replace my memories of dread

I just hope I can replace them with this bread

Back in the day I was hanging on by a thread because I didn’t have a gun to put to my head

One day one was brought into the house

I was gonna but then I thought of my mom and sisters

Not that I would miss her but where would I be when he hit her

I didn’t do shit but At Least I was a witness

My thoughts might be vicious but the fact I tell them are business

[Verse 2]

One day he threw a coffee cup

Almost hit me in the head

He thought I was mom but she was still in bed

I brushed the pieces off and walked out

Said I’m going to school

You will never understand my type of fuel

I swim in a pool of memories

That I will repeat for centuries

Writing my own documentaries

I felt like I was alone for so long

And so I hoped I’d write a song

But god help me be wrong

But I know I’m not

So I thought

What if I brought this shit to your attention

Who else would have a connection

Use this as a reflection

That even when you’re down you might have a suggestion

Intuition is what made me a musician and my mission is to have you listen

I want enough money to keep distant

Upload music consistent

Be able to make this commitment to my fans

I have big plans and they in action

All I need is a reaction with passion

I need to gain some traction

This is my distraction

All I need is someone to believe to water my seed

I’m doing my part to succeed

I grew up to be a different breed

Guess it was from all those nights I didn’t get to feed