I hold my head up high

The pounding deep inside

Echoing through my eyes

I see my worlds collide

Feels just like outer space

I can't forget your face

It’s even in the sky

I sit here wondering why

My body levitates

The room just circulates

I can’t lie this feels great

I’m giving into pleasure

Now this drug inside

Begins to creep behind

These walls I built so high

This is a desperate measure

I must be losing all control

The glass comes to my lips

I take another sip

My veins, they catch thеir grip

My brain, it starts to slip

I think of better times

I sit hеre wondering why

My eyes are open wide

But you’re not by my side

My body’s sinking now

Dirt and mind on the ground

I revel in the fold

I thrive in the surrender

But when it sinks too deep

I’m on the brink of sleep

Then darkness starts to creep

And fuck, the room is spinning

I must be losing all control

My mind is a hive that tries so hard

To hide the kind of guy that I am in-

Side to side and up and down, left, right

Where’s the pride in prime that used to fill my eyes

Everything that I’m told and shown

Reserves a home, pushes out anything that doesn’t leave me out alone

I think of you, and I sink with a view

Of what I want when I’m not high, what’s true?

Is it really you? The idea of you? The mere existence of a life as two?

And I’m kidding myself, killing myself, picking, ticking, ripping, tripping, kicking myself

To find a way to go on without missing you, needing a fix, a puff, a hit, the booze

To keep my mind from running away

And keep my life from hitting snooze

I’m holding on to everything with everything I have

I’m sinking to the ground and hoping it won’t be too bad

My palms are getting sweaty and my knuckles turning white

Now I will do anything just so I can stay alive

Intoxication, emancipation

You by my side was my sole liberation

But now I’m alone and need new regulation

Losing control is my new motivation

I must be

I must be

I must be

Losing all control