[Intro]

I'm sorry for all my wrongs that I've done and all the harm I caused

Maybe if I had proper guidance I wouldn't be feeling this lost

Wish I could take it back but that wouldn't change the fact

That I still carry a large weight on my back

Look in the bag and the void is black

[Verse 1]

Filled with all my sins that I couldn't take back

Homicide in my thoughts, scarred from endless flaws

Abusive nature manipulation reach for top spot and treat others like pawns

Suicidal thoughts so much I suffocate to my skin with a blade and in the car tying knots

Sloppy scrawls as I loosen breath, crashed in a car eventually turned into crashed car

Walking halls a soothing death, roaming gazelle dead broke in a hotеl, vacation from hell

Making threats, piss poor projects, women treated like objects

Seen death at eleven just after eleven

Poor young brothers weren't even seven

Seen a lot of shit no conception of heaven

Had to battle for my own so I had to have a weapon

One of mommas boyfriends had two Smith and Wessons

[Chorus/Verse 2]

Dreaming of a life I'll never have

Writing down these rhymes before I'm out of time just to communicate my life and apologize hopefully to make a splash

So what about what I have done it's all been said and done now it's gone become the past of actions trash

Sometimes it hurts too much with million memories gotta go slow take it easy sit back relax and cut the grass

[Verse 3]

Sorry what I've done and what I'll do I can't change the change just rearrange all of my pain and hate

Let's go backstage here's your pass to inside this teenage brain and therefore understand his estranged enrage and short ranged rampage kept in a cage

Keep your distance just envision his difference and writing worth many six digits respect the villain when he's conscious to know his conscience

Cognitive thinking afraid of breaking waking raising words are his painting