[Verse 1]

Yeah, holding back

Yeah, I've always been good at that, unattached (Yeah)

Waiting for what's coming next, things I know I should address

I feel more together when I am a mess (Whoa)

Got some moments that just came and went

Made amends with you, then you overstepped

That's a line you never shoulda crossed, you got no respect

Stop with all the threats

Like the more I get to know you, I just know you less (Yeah)

'Nother city I don't know well

Feeling too much like my old self

Backsliding, backsliding

Got me in the sad feels, got me at a standstill

Too much time alone is when it gets real (Ah)

Future doesn't pop up, then the past will

Upside, that's a rare view

Now I'm going downhill (Yeah)

Don't know who I'm close with

Going through the motions

Don't know who to trust when I (Yeah)

[Pre-Chorus]

I lie to myself and I, I can't handle it

Why do I waste so much time on things that I can't fix?

All these things I hold inside I just can't forget

Thought that I could let this go

[Chorus]

But I ain't know that it would be like this, yeah

Like this (Like this)

I ain't know that it would be like this

Yeah, like this

I ain't know that it would be like this

[Verse 2]

Yeah, maybe I'm impossible to be with

I know that you got a thousand reasons

You probably wanna leave, but don't know how, yeah

I don't hear a thing when you yell

Guess you like to hear your own voice, yeah

Got me standing here with no choice

I see they tryna guess, they got me all wrong

Look, I'm doing my best to try to stay calm

But I can't deal (Can't deal)

Feeling too much like my old self

Backsliding, backsliding

I just let the phone ring

We ain't even close, please

Throwing out opinions from the nosebleeds (Ayy, yeah)

Lot of issues that you don't see

Texts that I just won't read

Play it off, it cuts deep though

When I don't know who I'm close with

Going through the motions

Don't know who to trust when I (Yeah)

[Pre-Chorus]

I lie to myself and I, I can't handle it

Why do I waste so much time on things that I can't fix? (Yeah)

All these things I hold inside I just can't forget (Nah)

Thought that I could let this go (Yeah)

[Chorus]

But I ain't know that it would be like this, yeah (Woo, yeah)

Like this (Ayy)

I ain't know that it would be like this

(I ain't know that it would be like this, woo)

Yeah, like this (Like this)

I ain't know that it would be like this (Like this), yeah (Yeah)

Like this (Like this)

I ain't know that it would be like this

Yeah, like this (Like this)

I ain't know that it would be like this